Understanding Purpose

There comes a time on our spiritual journeys that we begin to understand the path that we are given and why. One day, it all becomes so clear. There is a beginning, middle, and end.

For me, my path began with a childhood full of abuse, isolation, and fear. This beginning was intended to help me understand the pains and sufferings of others, to learn compassion, and to practice forgiveness for those who injured me. During the middle of my journey, I obtained the skills and strength to defend myself and others who are equally defenseless and vulnerable.

I am moving towards the last part of my journey. During this phase of my journey, my path is one of compassion, forgiveness, and finding ways to serve those who are injured, defenseless, and vulnerable. Once I learned my purpose for this lifetime, I am able to accept my path and let go of my resentments, fears, and resistance to this path.May you understand your purpose and path for this lifetime. (Copyright 2018 awakening journey with all rights reserved.)


Coming into Clarity

951EB79C-3C40-4247-BACF-4C38D7A3F116.jpegOn our spiritual journey, we come to realize something very important. No matter what the gifts or talents we are given, our humans struggles are all the same. I believe this is what we are here to learn.

After my Kundalini energy rose in March, 2011, I was given the gift of insight, clairvoyance, and visions. However, as I enter my seventh year as a Kundalini active person, my human struggles remain the same. I still need to work hard, fight traffic, and deal with daily difficulties and hardships.

This is what I have come to learn about spiritual journeys. These journeys bring us back to the present which can be difficult as we are tested every day to be a better person, to have patience, and to love and have compassion. These are no small orders.

As humans, we live through fear, surrounded by trauma, and struggle to just survive. This does not change when we are given gifts from the Infinite. As I experienced my first decade of being a Kundalini active person, I have come to realize this important lesson. Blessings on your spiritual journey! (Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved)

Wishing for Miracles

I recently was again fortunate enough to witness a miracle in my life.  This miracle came at a time when I was ready to give up and crumble under the pressures of my mission from the Infinite.

As many of my readers know, I was called on my second tour of duty on my recent mission from the Infinite to relocate across the country to work at a college in desperate need of help.  I assist and protect college students who have been sexually assaulted, physically assaulted through interpersonal violence, sexually harassed, and stalked. It is a daunting mission, as I am servicing a student population of 23,000.

In the past few weeks, I had hit an all time low, and felt completely defeated and overwhelmed as there is more awareness through the ##MeToo movement, and more cases than my office can handle.  I prayed hard for guidance from the Infinite to help me navigate the media coverage, federal and state audits, federal and state investigations of colleges, and the multitude of law suits.

During a recent state audit of my college, I was able to stand up and defend the positions taken by my office, and we overcame the obstacles in this audit.  Something within me gave me the strength and endurance to do this, and the result was a glowing review of my college.  I am so proud of the efforts by me and my team.  The events that unfolded during this audit proved to me that the Infinite is guiding me and looking out for our students.

Everyday, I am shown these great miracles and the truly blessed life that I live.  May you see and find these miracles in your life!  (Copyright 2018 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)




Why We Attract Others

Do you ever wonder why you attract people full of drama, and those who lie, cheat, and hurt us? The answer is very simple. We attract them because we also share a common emotional injury as them.

Let me explain. We may be attracted to liars, cheaters, and philanders because this has occurred in our past with a parent, or another person very close to us. As a result of this past injury, we attract others into our lives who remind us of our past and feel familiar to us.

For me, it was my father who cheated on my mother, lied to us about his philandering, and also sexually and physically abused me. As a result of this past injury, I attracted many others with similar traits and behaviors.

Because I never recognize my own emotional injuries, I continue to blame others for hurting me. When I finally realized that this emotional injury was within me, and began zealously to heal myself, I no longer attract those with these negative traits and behaviors.

It is this self realization that we are powerful, since we hold the key in changing our lives. When we take responsibility for our own hurts and injuries, then we will attract different people into our lives and experience a more positive and healthy life. (Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved.)

Following the Tides

The spiritual journey flows like the tides,

Cycling through like a spiral,

Round and round it goes.

I stop to ponder where I have traveled,

Only to find my way back to the same flow.

It has taken me around and back,

To where I began.

It all seems so obvious and astute,

This time around.

Through each flow there is more clarity,

And the world becomes more vivid and clear.

The events of my life repeat,

But with each new wave,

I learn my life lessons.

The ghosts of my past remain in my past,

I then move merrily forward with knowing and wisdom,

Since the Infinite shows me where I must go.

(Copyright 2018 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)




Great Suffering of the Mind


As an empath, I have had the privilege of entering energy fields and minds of those I am attempting to help with healing their emotional wounds through Reiki and other modalities of healing work.  I have sensed and felt great suffering from those I am attempting to help.

What I have felt is that the greatest obstacles and sufferings are not from others or factors outside of us, but the greatest obstacles and sufferings are created by ourselves.  Let me explain.  When we experience anxiety, fear, and stress, most of these are perceived in anticipation of something we are about to experience.  This anxiety and stress is our fear of this future experience.  Some of these fears involve the fear of the unknown or failure in this future experience.  Other times, it is the fear of re-experiencing a trauma or negative experience we earlier experienced, but our minds cannot forget or let go of that past negative experience.

The greatest suffering is from our negative thoughts within our own minds.  It is our minds on automatic pilot filled with negative thoughts about ourselves and our future experiences. We essentially torment ourselves with these negative thoughts all day long.  Our moods and overall outlook are tainted and adversely effected by these negative thoughts.

The first step to changing our moods and overall outlook is changing our negative thoughts that haunt us by recognizing that we are doing this to ourselves.  These negative thoughts can be controlled and resolved through awareness, healing the wounds causing these negative thoughts, and rewiring our minds to positive thoughts.

Once we begin to understand where great suffering comes from – us, then we begin to become the masters of our thoughts and our minds.  It is learning to take back our own powers from our thoughts who end up controlling and tormenting us when we live on automatic pilot.  (Copyright 2018 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)



The Karmic Hand

Waves of karma,

Flowing through lifetimes,

Follows you like the tides.

With each new moon,

Karmic tides resonate in the sea,

Reflecting back the same.

With one hand, it gives,

With the other, it takes away.

You hold the hand you are dealt.

Your very livelihood is taken away,

Without means or recourse,

Ponder not what you will do,

But what you have done.

The harms of your past,

Shall follow you,

The rest of your soul life.

(Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved)

Letting Go of Ghosts from My Past

We all have a past and it is our emotional history. There was love that was lost, love we never received, and love we never could give. This may have involved our parents, our past lovers, or people we loved from afar.

Whoever theses ghosts were, we must let them go in order to move forward on our journey of soul evolution. After I released these ghosts from my life, my life transformed, and my soul grew miraculously.

As for me, some of these ghosts were from past lifetimes, and some were from my past in my current life. One particular person was a karmic debt from my past life time. When I finally released him from my life by forgiving him for this debt, my current life transformed including finally uniting with my twin flame.

The hurt, pain, and resentment fell away as I forgave him and released him. I never realized that letting go of this ghost could free me and finally allow me to move forward in my soul life.

Learning this important life lesson has brought joy, peace, and love that I was never able to attain earlier in my soul life. May you let go of the ghosts of your past. (Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved)