Is It Just Fear of the Coronavirus?

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During the Novel Coronavirus panedemic (Covid-19), I have observed many people overcome by their fears.  I feel and see panic, fear, and anxiety taking over the actions and lives of many people in the U.S.  Case in point, during the first week of the pandemic quarantine/lockdown, my partner received an unexpected text from a childhood friend who told him to “f*** off” along with other expletives, because my partner had not been in regular touch.  I believe this former friend is in financial crisis due to the pandemic, he is at high risk for contracting Covid-19 as well as his daughter and his elderly parents. This man is overwhelmed and emotionally over the edge.

As a Reiki therapy practitioner, I have scanned and read the aura/energy fields of many clients, friends, and family.  Energy does not lie and cannot be hidden from the practitioner.  What I observed and experienced is that each person has an emotional landscape created by a certain vibrational frequency or signature.  Our emotional landscape is the compilations of all our emotional experiences from our present and past lifetimes.   Throughout these lifetimes, we may have experienced trauma, such as the death of someone close to us, war, famine, childhood tragedy, and other trauma such as emotional, sexual, or physical abuse.   These experiences form our emotional landscape and create a certain vibrational frequency or signature within our energy field or aura. This vibrational frequency or signature acts as a baseline for our emotional landscape.

If we have unresolved traumas from our present or past lives, we may have a low or negative vibrational frequency or signature.  If these traumas are unresolved, stress or pain is created within our emotional landscape causing blockages within our chakras, meridians, and energy field/aura.  I believe this is the real “stress or pain” within all individuals.  Any external difficulties or obstacles, such as any threats, a pandemic, traffic, work issues, personal conflicts, financial problems, etc. can trigger this internal stress or pain creating a nervous breakdown, mental illness, physical illness, and stress related injuries or sickness, such as back strain, neck pain, heart attacks, etc.

Generally, people are not conscious and are unaware of their internal stress or pain.  Therefore, most people blame their stress or pain on external forces, and unaware that the external forces are merely triggers of their internal stress or pain within.  Until we recognize that this internal stress and pain exist within our emotional landscape, and confront our traumas and emotional experiences reflecting our negative or low vibrational frequency, we will continue to suffer this stress and pain. Negative emotions, such as fear, hate, resentment, jealousy, envy, etc, will continue to arise within us, and we continue to react to these negative emotions through negative behaviors or actions.  When we are unaware of the origin of this stress and pain, we continue this cycle of arising negative emotions with the companion negative behaviors and reactions.

During the Novel Coronavirus pandemic, be aware of the negative emotions arising within you. Determine the origin of this negative emotion, and address the underlying fear, stress, or pain. Try to refrain from reacting or acting out on these negative emotions to stay emotionally healthy during this time.   Since we have so much time to think about the pandemic during the quarantine/lockdown, our minds are working overtime, and we feel emotionally overwhelmed. Don’t forget self care by taking a break from social media and the news media, exercising regularly, enjoying nature, eating healthy, and resting/sleeping to stay healthy during this time! (Copyright 2020 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)


Coronavirus: Mother Nature at Work

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I live in California, and our Governor issued a lockdown for our state limiting us from leaving our homes except for groceries, medication, emergencies, and walking our companion dogs.  As with China, Italy, and the rest of Europe and Asia, the lockdown has reduced pollution improving air quality and water quality, and the earth is healing during this time of lockdown for human.  Humans are driving less, traveling less, and generally consuming less of the Mother Nature’s resources.

Mother Nature has given us pandemics on other occasions during human history due to unsanitary living conditions, humans living in close quarters, and humans working in close proximity to animals.  The major pandemics included the Bubonic plague, Cholera, Small Pox and influenza that returned to infect humans more than once in human history.  Human population was reduced significantly during these pandemics. Quarantines were first used in Italy during one of the Bubonic plague outbreaks where sailors from ships entering Venice were not permitted to disembark for 40 days called the “quarantino,” and now we call this isolation, “quarantine.”

Now, we add the COVID-19, the novel Coronavirus to this list of pandemics.  Human must again be quarantined to save our population from reduction and serious illness.  It is a time to heed the precautions to protect ourselves and our loved ones, but there is just so much we can do individually.  Our egos want to control outcome, and when that perception of control is undermine, we feel fear, anxiety, and anger.

I observed many on social media including myself becoming angry at this pandemic.  This was true for me, particularly when young adults are going to Florida beaches during spring break, while the COVID-19 is spreading across the globe.  Young people in the U.S. have died two weeks after contracting this deadly virus. It is not an infection of the elderly, but a pandemic effecting all humans.

During this time, we cannot control or calm this “storm” by Mother Nature.  The only thing we can do is calm ourselves, and take this time to self care and heal ourselves.  Meditate, practice yoga, practice Tai Chi, practice Qi Gong, exercise, make art, write music, write poetry or your next novel, read a good book, make healthy meals, clean your house/apartment, and most of all, spend quality time with your loved ones.  May you be safe and healthy during this pandemic.  Sending healing love and light! (Copyright 2020 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)



Staying Conscious During the Coronavirus Epidemic


During the Coronavirus epidemic, staying conscious is so crucial to our physical and mental health.  The fear and panic that is raised during this time can cause us to become physically run down and emotionally distressed.  During this period of isolation for many, I intend to use this time for self care, emotional healing, and introspection.  This is the perfect time to contemplate about our inner life, particularly when most social and public events are closed or postponed.

I use Emotional Release Practice to handle the overwhelming feelings of fear and panic with each new media coverage of viral spread and more cases of Coronovirus victims.  Please see Emotional Release Practice  to help you with fear and panic during this epidemic.  I recommend restricting social media and news media coverage that will help reduce fear and panic, but keep updated on the CDC or State Public Health Press Releases.  Using this time wisely by spending time exercising, making healthy meals, reading a good book, clean your house (finally), making art, enjoying music, enjoy the outdoors, and of course, quality time with your loved ones!  Using Reiki therapy from a distance, and spending time outdoors and with your pet companions are good ways to boost your immune system against the virus.

This period of time does not need to be negative, depressing, or morbid.  It gives us the opportunity to take care of ourselves, slow down, and do the things we never have time to do!  This is one way of living consciously that transcends beyond our human fears.  Take care during this time. Sending health, healing and peace to you! (Copyright 2020 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)


Floating to the Surface

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I recently started Jazz flute lessons with a professional musician and flute teacher.  This process has much significance for me, since I started playing the flute when I was about 12 years old, and piano when I was 8 years old.  During those formative years of my life, I also was struggling with sexual and physical abuse by my father, and emotional and physical abuse by my mother.  I poured myself into practicing for up to 3 to 5 hours a day, and became lost in this solitude and safety.  Music saved my life as a child, but along with my music as a coping and survival skill, it also carries with it all the trauma and terror from my childhood.

During my second recent flute lesson, I felt afraid of my teacher and his disapproval of my playing.  I know this fear is within me.  My self esteem and fear of failure are very much tied to my music playing.  I remember as a child freezing on stage and unable to continue playing.  Performance anxiety has been one of the reactions to my fears when I perform.  It was quite a shock for all my fears to come to the surface now after so many years has passed.

I am taking these flute lessons not only to learn to play jazz, but to heal from my childhood wounds.  It is forcing me to confront the fears of my past, and the feelings arising from these fears.  I certainly did not expect it to be so difficult reliving my childhood emotions.  I believe that I will begin to remember my repressed and suppressed memories and feelings of fear, sadness, isolation, and vulnerability.

It may help me release the trauma that I have buried for so long, because I don’t remember many memories from my childhood.  I now am starting to remember feelings of sadness, loneliness, and isolation.  There was so much pain and hurt in the little girl that was me.  I wanted desperately for approval, love, and protection.  Now, as an adult, I can provide this approval, love, and protection for myself, and find the self love that I never learned.

I give myself permission to make mistakes when I am not perfect.  I forgive myself when I make mistakes because I am not perfect.  I give myself approval even when I make mistakes because I am not perfect.  I give myself love even when I make mistakes because I am not perfect.  I realize that this is what the little girl within me lacked, needed, and deserved.  I deserve this love, and so do so many little boys and girls out there!  (Copyright 2020 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)






Self Healing through Reiki

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Since beginning my Reiki private practice, I have been performing self Reiki to make sure that I incorporate self care into my practice.  Usui Mikao, the founder of Reiki died of a stroke four years after his awakening on Mt. Kurama which manifested his ability to heal with his hands.  Subsequently, he created the current day, Reiki practice and taught it to many students, as well as healing four or five clients at the same time during these four years.  However, I believed that he was not diligent in self care that may have resulted in his death through a stroke. His story is a life lesson for all Reiki practitioners.

I have been providing Reiki therapy for my twin flame who has the same emotional and physical issues as me.  Therefore, after treating him, I would treat myself on the same issues.  Since performing self Reiki, many fears and buried emotions have come to the surface.  I have been experiencing nightmares regularly, disrupting my sleep nightly.  They deal mainly with self doubt, fears of failure, and fears of the unknown.  In these dreams, I do not feel at peace, and feel agitated, and unsettled.

It’s so ironic that I just spoke to a dear friend recently, and urged her to let go of any fears of the unknown, failure and self doubt.  I really was speaking to myself on these same issues.  I truly believe that once these fears are released then we begin to manifest what we need and want in our lives.  It already has begun for me, through finding my Reiki private practice, uniting with my twin flame, and finding my way to true joy and happiness in my life.

This new place feels quite foreign to me, since I am changing my negative behaviors, letting go of my expectations, and living in the present.  I anticipate that when this new place becomes the norm for me, I will settle into deep peace and joy within.  (Copyright 2020 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)


Ask and You Shall Receive!


I have been volunteering at a local hospital providing Reiki treatments to patients.  I recently had a misunderstandings involving my volunteer supervisor.  He does not communicate well with his own staff or other hospital staff which resulted in a hospital staff complaining about his lack of communication to his supervisor.  Furthermore, it seems that when I follow this supervisor’s directions, I end up in some conflict with others at the hospital.

Ever since that incident, he has seen me as the problem in the Reiki program and has reprimanded me about things that could have been addressed quite simply.  These events have caused me to dread this volunteer job.  However, because I am committed to helping the patients at this hospital, I continued volunteering weekly.

Recently, my supervisor asked the Hospital’s Volunteer Office to assign me to another location about 30 minutes away, since no Reiki practitioner is assigned there.  When he suggested this to the Volunteer Office personnel in my presence, I did not react negatively, but merely replied that I would consider which date I am available and will get back with them.  Ironically, before heading to the hospital that morning, I sensed that I no longer would be working with this supervisor.  Coincidentally, one of my clients also has been asking me about Reiki at this new location because it is where she lives.

What began as a difficult and challenging situation has resulted in a new opportunity for me without further weekly interactions with this supervisor!  Even better, my client has decided to continue Reiki treatments with me at this new location.  It is a win-win situation with more autonomy for me and, hopefully, fewer conflicts at the hospital going forward.  I believe my prayers were answered, as I sent positive thoughts and forgiveness to this supervisor so that my situation would improve.  As the saying goes, “Ask and you shall received!” (Copyright 2020 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)




Holiday Blues

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The holidays is a tough time for many, including me.  Many unresolved issues arise within me.  There are issues of shame, guilt, and self blame that still exist within my emotional landscape.  They manifest in my everyday life through my interactions with others.  During the holidays, these negative emotions become more heightened.  I know that if I still have these negative emotions within me, I simply will continue to attract others to me with the same negative emotions.

Children blame themselves for the abuse and harm they suffered.  For instance, if they are abandoned by their parents, they believe they caused the abandonment.  If children are abused, they believe they deserve the abuse.  This is the mind of a child.  As adults, if we have not resolved these negative beliefs or perception, then we continue to believe these myths about ourselves, and continue to behave as the injured child within.

Behaviors or emotions experienced as adults may include self sabotage, self loathing, self blame, shame, and/or guilt.  For instance, if our lives are going well, we may initiate self sabotage by creating an argument because we feel discomfort within through anxiety or guilt.  We then feel self loathing, self blame, and shame for causing this self sabotage. It is a common cycle for many of us.

How do we change these negative emotions and subsequent, negative behaviors or actions?  The first step is self awareness.  Check-in with yourself several times a day through grounding.  During these check-ins, determine where you feel these negative emotions within your body?  What does this negative emotion feel like in your body?  What does anxiety feel like to you?  What does guilt feel like to you?  What does shame feel like to you?  On a scale of 1 to 5 with 5 at the highest level, where are you on this scale right now?  By practicing self awareness, it will become easier and quicker to identify these negative emotions before we start reacting to them.

The second step is practicing deep breathing exercises, meditation, or Emotional Release Practice, even if it’s only a few seconds or minutes at a time until these negative emotions pass.  Do not react or identify with these emotions;  they are not you, but merely passing emotions. Practice this as often as needed.  With practice, these negative emotions and thoughts associated to these emotions will eventually dissipate.  Have patience with your practice as it does not work spontaneously, but will be more and more effective with each practice.  Blessings on your spiritual journey forward.  (Copyright 2019 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)






Taking on Other’s Karma

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This morning, I contemplated about karma,specifically taking on other’s karma.  How does this happen?  Well, we take on other’s karma through the concept of attachment.  When we help others through attachment, we will take on the karma of others.  Let me explain.

For example, if your child has been punished at school for a wrongdoing, you feel bad for your child, and you go to the school principal to complain.  As a result, your child is excused from the punishment.  You have taken on your child’s karma.  What would appear as love and protection for your child instead results in your child’s failure to learn an important life lesson.

When you look more deeply, your need to protect your child may truly involve your own embarrassment for what your child did, or it may have reflected poorly on you as a parent.  Since your child failed to learn to change this negative behavior, the karma continues with your child and now with you as well.  There will be greater karmic consequences in the future for you and your child because your child has failed to learn this life lesson.

As a Reiki practitioner, I contemplate on why clients seek Reiki treatments from me. For example, a lovely woman recently sought Reiki treatments with me, but I sensed very strongly that she seeks a solution from someone else or something for her life, such as the next new age magical cure.  I believe that she must learn to resolve her karma, and learn the consequences of her decisions and actions.  I referred her to Reiki classes so that she may begin to take responsibility for her own life and healing.

Many people will be angry with you because you refuse to take on their karma, forcing them to face the consequences of their own actions and decisions.  However, on the long run, you have helped them take responsibility for their own lives, decisions, and actions. This may seem cold and heartless, but it is to the contrary. We are all on this earth to learn life lessons, and our failure to learn these lessons simple create more karma and more serious consequences in our future decisions and actions.

My willingness to take responsibility for my decisions and actions transformed me to the person I am today.  I also have learned the difference between compassion and attachment. Compassion is empowering another for their highest good, and attachment is enabling another to become a codependent to you.  I struggle with this daily as a Reiki practitioner as I try to empower those with whom I treat, and will ask clients to leave treatment when I feel they are ready.  (Copyright 2019 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)



Reiki and Self Healing

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I have been a Reiki practitioner on and off for about seven years, and was certified as a Reiki Master in 2016.  However, it is only recently that I feel confident and strong enough to treat others professionally.  During this return to Reiki practice, I have found an acceleration of my own healing.  I am giving myself Reiki treatments daily to heal my ailments, and also am making huge leaps in my spiritual healing.

This has become evident on three occasions during this past week.  These feel like tests that I have been given by the Infinite.  One spiritual practice that I have been practicing is to give unconditionally to others. This unconditional giving means that I am giving through my spirit’s free will, instead of out of ego’s obligations, guilt, shame, or other negative emotions.

The first incident involved a message I received from an acquaintance friend who asked to stay with me along with her boyfriend for several weeks during the Christmas/New Year holiday.  The second incident involved a former colleague who I worked with very briefly asking me to share Powerpoint slides for free from my consulting firm.  The third incident involved a request from my boss to provide him with a Reiki attunement in a practice that I did not teach him, nor did he learn through another practitioner.  All these incidents elicited the same feelings that I did not want to agree to their requests.

For each of these situations, I gave each of them a reasonable explanations as to why I cannot accommodate them and provided an alternative to their request.  I am certain they are not pleased, but these are not things I wish to give unconditionally, and therefore, I will not do so out of guilt, obligation, or the need for their approval.

I have never been good about standing up to others, but these series of tests showed me that I must learn to give unconditionally, and if I do not wish to give unconditionally, then I should state as such, although I still provide some alternative assistance.  For each decision now in my life, I ask myself, “Is this something I really want to do for another unconditionally?”  If the answer is, “no” then I must do so accordingly. (Copyright 2019 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)