I recently was again fortunate enough to witness a miracle in my life. This miracle came at a time when I was ready to give up and crumble under the pressures of my mission from the Infinite.
As many of my readers know, I was called on my second tour of duty on my recent mission from the Infinite to relocate across the country to work at a college in desperate need of help. I assist and protect college students who have been sexually assaulted, physically assaulted through interpersonal violence, sexually harassed, and stalked. It is a daunting mission, as I am servicing a student population of 23,000.
In the past few weeks, I had hit an all time low, and felt completely defeated and overwhelmed as there is more awareness through the ##MeToo movement, and more cases than my office can handle. I prayed hard for guidance from the Infinite to help me navigate the media coverage, federal and state audits, federal and state investigations of colleges, and the multitude of law suits.
During a recent state audit of my college, I was able to stand up and defend the positions taken by my office, and we overcame the obstacles in this audit. Something within me gave me the strength and endurance to do this, and the result was a glowing review of my college. I am so proud of the efforts by me and my team. The events that unfolded during this audit proved to me that the Infinite is guiding me and looking out for our students.
Everyday, I am shown these great miracles and the truly blessed life that I live. May you see and find these miracles in your life! (Copyright 2018 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
Do you ever wonder why you attract people full of drama, and those who lie, cheat, and hurt us? The answer is very simple. We attract them because we also share a common emotional injury as them.
Let me explain. We may be attracted to liars, cheaters, and philanders because this has occurred in our past with a parent, or another person very close to us. As a result of this past injury, we attract others into our lives who remind us of our past and feel familiar to us.
For me, it was my father who cheated on my mother, lied to us about his philandering, and also sexually and physically abused me. As a result of this past injury, I attracted many others with similar traits and behaviors.
Because I never recognize my own emotional injuries, I continue to blame others for hurting me. When I finally realized that this emotional injury was within me, and began zealously to heal myself, I no longer attract those with these negative traits and behaviors.
It is this self realization that we are powerful, since we hold the key in changing our lives. When we take responsibility for our own hurts and injuries, then we will attract different people into our lives and experience a more positive and healthy life. (Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved.)
The spiritual journey flows like the tides,
Cycling through like a spiral,
Round and round it goes.
I stop to ponder where I have traveled,
Only to find my way back to the same flow.
It has taken me around and back,
To where I began.
It all seems so obvious and astute,
This time around.
Through each flow there is more clarity,
And the world becomes more vivid and clear.
The events of my life repeat,
But with each new wave,
I learn my life lessons.
The ghosts of my past remain in my past,
I then move merrily forward with knowing and wisdom,
Since the Infinite shows me where I must go.
(Copyright 2018 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
As an empath, I have had the privilege of entering energy fields and minds of those I am attempting to help with healing their emotional wounds through Reiki and other modalities of healing work. I have sensed and felt great suffering from those I am attempting to help.
What I have felt is that the greatest obstacles and sufferings are not from others or factors outside of us, but the greatest obstacles and sufferings are created by ourselves. Let me explain. When we experience anxiety, fear, and stress, most of these are perceived in anticipation of something we are about to experience. This anxiety and stress is our fear of this future experience. Some of these fears involve the fear of the unknown or failure in this future experience. Other times, it is the fear of re-experiencing a trauma or negative experience we earlier experienced, but our minds cannot forget or let go of that past negative experience.
The greatest suffering is from our negative thoughts within our own minds. It is our minds on automatic pilot filled with negative thoughts about ourselves and our future experiences. We essentially torment ourselves with these negative thoughts all day long. Our moods and overall outlook are tainted and adversely effected by these negative thoughts.
The first step to changing our moods and overall outlook is changing our negative thoughts that haunt us by recognizing that we are doing this to ourselves. These negative thoughts can be controlled and resolved through awareness, healing the wounds causing these negative thoughts, and rewiring our minds to positive thoughts.
Once we begin to understand where great suffering comes from – us, then we begin to become the masters of our thoughts and our minds. It is learning to take back our own powers from our thoughts who end up controlling and tormenting us when we live on automatic pilot. (Copyright 2018 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
Waves of karma,
Flowing through lifetimes,
Follows you like the tides.
With each new moon,
Karmic tides resonate in the sea,
Reflecting back the same.
With one hand, it gives,
With the other, it takes away.
You hold the hand you are dealt.
Your very livelihood is taken away,
Without means or recourse,
Ponder not what you will do,
But what you have done.
The harms of your past,
Shall follow you,
The rest of your soul life.
(Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved)
We all have a past and it is our emotional history. There was love that was lost, love we never received, and love we never could give. This may have involved our parents, our past lovers, or people we loved from afar.
Whoever theses ghosts were, we must let them go in order to move forward on our journey of soul evolution. After I released these ghosts from my life, my life transformed, and my soul grew miraculously.
As for me, some of these ghosts were from past lifetimes, and some were from my past in my current life. One particular person was a karmic debt from my past life time. When I finally released him from my life by forgiving him for this debt, my current life transformed including finally uniting with my twin flame.
The hurt, pain, and resentment fell away as I forgave him and released him. I never realized that letting go of this ghost could free me and finally allow me to move forward in my soul life.
Learning this important life lesson has brought joy, peace, and love that I was never able to attain earlier in my soul life. May you let go of the ghosts of your past. (Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved)
It is the end of 2017, and a wonderful opportunity to reflect on the past year. It has been nearly one year since my relationship with my twin flame, although we have known each other for over five years.
The unusual relationship of twin flames is that we mirror our twin’s emotional wounds. It is the same wound but from two different perspectives. Case in point, I am working through issues of jealousy and trust. My childhood was filled with distrust as my father had many extramarital affairs as well as sexually abusing me. My twin flame is working on lack of self-esteem that has caused him to seek approval and attention from other people.
Here lies the double edged sword where my emotional wound is also his emotional wound like two sides of the same coin. After much contemplation, I have come to realize that I must heal my own emotional wounds so I no longer suffer with this distrust and jealousy in my life. He also must heal his emotional wounds so that his self worth is not reliant on the approvals and attentions of others.
Our relationship has a mirroring effect so that when we find fault with the other, it is critically important to see our side of the same coin. Every relationship we have with others is a mirror of ourselves. May you reflect on your year of 2017. (Copyright 2017 Awakenimg Journey with all rights reserved)
We as humans have come to believe that there is a lack or dearth, and there is not enough to go around for all. This fear drives us as a specie.
During my spiritual journey, I have learned that this is a fiction created by our fears. I believe this fear is created by our egos. On my spiritual journey, the Infinte has shown me that there is enough to go around and success is available for everyone.
If we fear this lack, then lack is what we will attract into our lives. So many People function and live through this fear. What I have observed is that they then attract this lack of abundance, lack of love, and lack of success.
How do we overcome this fear of lack? We begin to believe that there is already abundance, love, and success in our lives, and we are grateful for all we have. This may seem deceptively simple, but it is true.
Try this method and see if there is a change in abundance in your life. May you find abundance in your life this Christmas! Merry Christmas to you! (Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved)