When we live without fear, we are able to love fearlessly. After five years of emotional healing and spiritual work, I finally learned to love fearlessly. My fears of abandonment, being unloveable, and rejection are in my past, and I am living a different life now.
Recently, when I went through a box of old journals and notebooks, I found a page written in early 2013 about reading some books on Abraham Hicks on the law of attraction, and learning to energetically aligning with what we want. Essentially, we energetically become what we want to attract.
Our aura or energetic frequency is composed of our emotional and mental vibrations. Trauma, negative experiences, and emotional injuries create a certain vibration which attracts similar vibrations. Many will meet or attract those who continue to abuse, hurt, and injure them, and cannot understand why this is happening as I did for a long time.
In this journal on this page, I found a list of things I wrote that I want in my life, including a loving, honest, and loyal relationship, a fulfilling and satisfying career, and my own healing and becoming my higher self. As I reflected on these words, I realize that I have received all that I asked for.
These miracles of finding my soulmate, finding a fulfilling job at a university who appreciates my abilities and hard work, and internal peace and love for myself are the results of changing my energetic frequency to attract what I want. May you heal and attract what you want. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved).
It has been awhile when I last posted, since I have been busy moving, getting settled, starting a new job and relationship. It is everything I asked for, so don’t wish too hard, you may actually get what you want. Last night, I experienced an episode of Kundalini syndrome that I have not experienced for about two years.
As I slept, I felt this surging energy in my solar plexus chakra as my Kundalini energy became blocked there. Initially, I thought I was experiencing indigestion as I had a late supper of spicy Thai food. After taking medication and my symptoms did not subside, I realize that I was experiencing my Kundalini energy becoming blocked in my solar plexus chakra.
I have been fully aware of issues in my new relationship as he became more demanding of my time asking to spend a large part of my weekend, and traveling during the week to his concerts. As I have a very emotionally demanding job of working with sexually assaulted students, my energy was completely depleted last night as I drove one and half hour each way to attend his concert.
As I drove to the concert, I knew that I needed to take back my power by setting healthy boundaries, as his behavior was becoming codepedent which is a behavior that I have been trying to break. I did not bring up these issues with him after the concert and when I returned home, the energy in my solar plexus chakra began vibrating vigorously while I felt terrible pain in my stomach and abdomen. This went on for most of the night, and I was unable to sleep for most of the night.
When I awoke the next morning, the pain had subsided some, and I called my boyfriend describing what I had experienced. I also requested some limits on our time with each other as well as why I needed this time to take care of my myself and the things I need to do for my life. He was very understanding and agreed that limitation on time together will benefit him as well. Almost immediately after our conversation, the pain in my solar plexus chakra completely vanished.
The miracle of Kundalini energy is that it will alert me of the problems when I fail to address them in my life. It keeps me honest and authentic because when I am not true to myself, I experience physical pain which I then must determine the origin of the blockage to my Kundalini energy. It is both a blessing and a curse, but it helps me navigate my life. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved).