Finding My Wounded Spirit

In earlier posts, I wrote about techniques in dealing with emotional issues. However, I was unable to explain how to spot these issues in our every day lives. Recently, I had a revelation about how to pinpoint and identity these emotional wounds within us. It is this simple. If we react to a situation, comment, or conflict, then it is our emotional wound and issue. This is where the healing must begin.

This is how I came to this revelation. Recently, during a conversation with my twin flame, he mentioned to me that he was drafting his will that included many family members. During this conversation, it never came up as to how I will fit into his life. I became upset and we fought over this.

Interestingly, during my earlier marriage, I also was not included in my husband’s will. This hurt me deeply and I was unaware of the wound that is still within me. The revelation that I had about this conversation was: (1) I have a wound that needs healing here; (2) I will not marry another man, who does not include me in his will because I deserve better as I love myself now; (3) I must heal this wound, from not being taken care of or truly loved by the men in my past, in order to move onto a healthier future.

Once I identify my emotional issues that still require healing, I will then use the techniques described in my Blogsite Homepage. May you find emotional healing and spiritual growth in your life. (Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved)


Emotional Release Pratice Revisited


It’s been several years since I last wrote about Emotional Release Practice.  Recently I had to revisit this technique as I had not experienced the full reactions and panic attacks that I had earlier experienced in my life when I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and posttraumatic stress disorder.

Panic attacks and negative reactions occur when we first have a negative thought in our minds. This negative thought is associated with negative emotions. The negative emotions we experience may be jealousy, anger, resentment, envy, etc.   These negative  emotions arise from our fears. We then react physically to these negative emotions and experience a panic attack.

The purpose of Emotional Release Practice is  to become aware of these negative thoughts when they first arise within our minds, and then to prevent the negative reaction or panic attack. Please see my earlier post on Emotional Relesse Practice for the specific technique.

This technique is difficult to master as the negative emotion will arise within seconds after the negative thought comes into our minds. The negative  physical  reaction takes only several more seconds to occur.  However, once we master the technique, it will become automatic in our every day life, and we are able to cope with the various negative thoughts, negative  emotions, and then the subsequent negative reactions that occur daily.

This technique is a coping skill to assist us while we are working on and healing our core emotional landscape.  Good luck with your spiritual and healing journey! ( copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved)

Awareness of Fear


In recent days, I have observed all levels of irony in my life and life of those around me. What I believe is that very few people have awareness of what is really happening to them.  Many people have lamented to me that they have no friends and are rejected by others.  They lack the awareness that their behaviors are driving others away.  In fact, it is this fear of rejection by others that caused them to become clingy, distant, or even sabotaging their potential friendships causing others to find them unlikeable.

Another recent situation is just such a reminder.  A young man was trying to make a good impression during an interview with me.  He was so focused on himself and his efforts to get this job that he came across self-centered and inconsiderate, while unaware of his behaviors. His fear of not getting the job resulted in him actually not getting this job.  Isn’t that just so ironic?

Many times, I have observed this type of irony as people are generally unaware of their thoughts and behaviors, but instead accuse others of hurting or rejecting them.  The reality is that they are causing these outcomes without even realizing it.  We attract what we fear.  Under the law of attraction, we attract what we think. If we think about fear, we will attract the very outcome we fear.

When we are fearful about something, we likely will behave in certain ways to counter this fear and inevitably, we cause the very outcome we fear.  If we become aware of our fears and the behaviors resulting from these fears, we can change the course and outcomes in our lives. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with all rights reserved)



Living Beyond Fear

imageIt took me a very long time to understand about fear. I finally understand that living in fear is a choice.  I had identified with being a victim and living in fear, anxiety, and depression was a way of life for me.  When I started my spiritual journey six years ago, I realized that I have chosen a life of fear and lived in this state all the time.

All this changed when I wished and wanted to live a different life. I realized that to give up living in fear, I must give up my identity of being a victim.  This identity has been so entrenched in my psyche that I did not know how to live in any other way.

To begin to give up a life of fear is first acknowledging that we live in fear most of the time. We live in a society where we are fearful of being robbed, burglarized, mugged, and prepare for the worst to happen to us.  We spend large amounts of money on insurance, alarm systems, and protecting ourselves and our families.

Secondly, we must understand that perceived fear is created by ego. Therefore, before we can live without fear, we must release our egos. Please see my earlier post on Observing Ego Practice. Once we release our egos, we can begin to overcome our fears. Blessings on your journey! (Awakening Journey Copyright 2017 with all rights reserved)



Letter to My Past

During the rising of my Kundalini energy in March 2011, I met someone who also was Kundalini active, and I believe he was sent to help me with my rising kundalini energy.  Although he was sent to me, he was my karmic past that I needed to resolve and let go.

Recently after experiencing the rising Kundalini energy of my twin flame, I began to realize what I need to do to let go of this past karmic relationship and taking responsibility for my part in this past relationship. As my Kundalini energy rose, he showed me that I needed to forgive my father for the past childhood abuse I experienced.

Even up to recently, I had not forgiven my father for my past abuse. In fact, I continue to blame this man who symbolized my father.  As I am in my sixth year of my spiritual journey, it is time to let this go and forgive all from my past. I must understand his role and my father’s role in my life that showed me what I must overcome to become the person I am intended to become.

This realization and forgiveness will help me move forward as I have been stuck emotionally and spiritually on this issue for most of life.  Overcoming our past trauma is the ability to forgive those who have injured and hurt us.  It is not to reconcile with them or forget what they did to us, as it was our lesson to learn in this lifetime.  It is letting go of the hurt to move forward without them and without this pain.  May you find your path forward through forgiveness.  (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

Rising Kundalini Energy

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Rising Kundalini energy can be a daunting experience that I experienced in March 2011.  When my Kundalini energy rose, I experienced a surge of energy move up my spine from my sacrum, and once the energy is raised, it remains active within our energy fields.  This energy rising can make our emotions feel chaotic and out of control. What the energy is doing is pushing through your emotional body all the blockages caused by unresolved emotional traumas and/or issues.

As my energy rose in March 2011, I began to re-experience the traumas of my past and felt these emotional injuries very acutely as if I was reliving it in the present.  The lenses of my experience was that of a child victim as my traumas occurred during my childhood.  I began to become very emotional and sensitive as all my emotions rose to the surface of my awareness, and it felt very overwhelming.  Please see my earlier post on Understanding How We Deal with Emotions.

Our illnesses or conditions, both emotional and physical become more intense and acute, and fears on all levels will surface to our full awareness.  The first step is to cope and deal with the fears that are mostly perceived and triggered by our past experiences. Please see my earlier post on Steps of Overcoming Fear.  This fear is caused by our egos that is triggered by a current event, and is intensified by the Kundalini Energy. Please see my earlier post on The Effect of Ego on Perception.

I also used techniques suggested by others to managed this energy in my earlier post on Surviving Kundalini Crisis as well as Holistic Approach to Healing.  These are techniques to help manage the rising Kundalini energy.   Don’t despair since all this shall pass as Kundalini energy will accelerate your emotional healing, and help you on your path to awakening.  Be patient and surrender to this process by not fighting and flowing with it.  It is intended to help you evolve spiritually, and your life will never be the same again. Sending blessings and strength on your spiritual journey forward. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)




Rewiring the Hardwiring – Part III

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Part III of the series on Rewiring the Hardwiring of the human brain is by Geoffrey James with additional techniques on how to rewire your brain of negative events by weakening them and rewiring the brain with positive events to create more success and abundance in our lives.  Geoffrey James’ article is provided in the following link:

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