Your Life Is Your Journey


I began my spiritual journey in March 2011 when my Kundalini energy rose.  This journey did not take me to the far reaches of the world, a pilgrimage trail, an ashram in India, a temple in Tibet, or a temple in Instanbul.  My journey exists in my everyday life through my job, through relationships, through people I meet, and even on a hike alone.  I realize that my life is my spiritual journey of self discovery.  I did not need to go anywhere!

This spiritual path forces me to confront my fears, learn patience through difficult people, change my unhealthy relationships, let go of what I cannot control, overcome toxic people and situations, forgive myself, and love myself.  Through changing my life, I transform and ascend on my spiritual journey.

For example, I was taking a hike the other day on a unfamiliar trail.  When I went beyond the point I was familiar, I began to turn back.  It took me three attempts, but I finally began to walk the path of the unfamiliar without any trail signs or map.  I just kept walking forward into the unknown, and in that moment, I overcame that fear that held me back and prevented me from walking forward.

A spiritual journey is about confronting the unknown that makes us afraid.  It is overcoming the unfamiliar obstacles and difficulties in life that we are confronted.  It is discovering ourselves, and learning that we are courageous and brave.  Everyday in our lives, we are confronted with our difficult journey.  It is overcoming these daily obstacles that is truly our journey.

If we take each person or situation as a life lesson, we will have covered many miles on our spiritual journey.  Every person and situation is our opportunity to learn about ourselves and change ourselves to live the higher path without fear and through self love.

Don’t stay stuck in your life to pacify your fears.  Don’t stay in unhealthy relationships in fear of being alone.  Don’t accept bad behaviors for fear of rejection.  Face your fears, accept yourself and your past, love who you are today, and learn to love others without condition.  Find your journey exactly where you are!  (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)






Dependency Versus Unconditional Love

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I have written on this subject before, but it is an issue my Twin Flame and I are working through now.  Most human relationships are dependencies because they are conditional. Our relationships with our lovers, friends, and family are based on what we give to each other.  This is because of ego.  For example, if you give me love then I will return it, and if you give me a gift then I will return this gift.   It is this for that or quid pro quo. This is the quality of most human relationships through ego that makes our world go around and around.

Unconditional love is a whole other thing.  Love that is given without condition does not exist normally within our world, except God’s love for us, or your dog’s love for you. This is where most relationships and marriages fail, because once that condition changes or we no longer need that condition, the relationship fails. That, I believe, is the reason for the high statistics of failed marriages throughout our world.

How do we keep relationships alive and lasting?  I believe it is to love unconditionally the soul of another being.  This love is given freely, not because of someone’s appearance, wealth, status, talents, or even intelligence.  It is solely because you can see the beauty and the goodness within their soul.  Everyone has goodness within their soul, but you have the choice to whom you give this unconditional love.  Truly enlightened people give this unconditional love to every soul, but I am not quite there yet.

As I observe those around me as an empath, I can sense the basis of attraction between others.  If that attraction is based on a condition associated with a lack or deficiency in their lives, it is most likely a karmic relationships. For example, two people love each other because they have the same emotional injuries or lack.  This lack becomes the condition of their relationship when each fulfills the other’s lack.  The result of  this condition creates competition, resentment, jealousy, and more lack which is the manifestation of the dependency relationship and really is not love.

If two people attract based on condition such as, if you will help me, then I will help you, or if you take care of me then I will take care of you.  Although this relationship may be based on a soulmate connection, this relationship too will change or fail when the conditions change.  Whether a karmic or soulmate relationship, these conditional or dependency relationships will eventually change or dissolve as they did in my life.

This is when we must honestly look at the relationships in our lives, and begin to change those conditional or dependency dynamics to unconditional love.  You will know it’s a conditional or dependency relationship when you begin to change that dynamic with your friend, family, or lover, but they will oppose this change since that was your initial agreement together.   May you find unconditional love in your life. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

Preparing for Twin Flame Union


My entire soul life has prepared me for my present existence.  I have walked through such darkness that most will not venture to find my way forward.  This darkness prepared me for my union with my Twin Flame that is nothing short of a miracle.  The union only occurred after I began seeking a Divine union within myself and guided by my higher self.

During this dark journey, I survived many karmic relationships filled with drama, chaos, and pain.  These relationships involved both my parents, lovers, and partners.  I survived all of them to live to tell about it.  During these karmic relationships, I learned to love myself, to love others unconditionally, to attract abundance, to find self worth and esteem, and to find my purpose in our world.

During this time, I began to evolved closer and closer to my Twin Flame.  During July 2013 when I was not even seeking a relationship, and was on my spiritual journey of self discovery alone, I met my Twin Flame in Cinque Terre, Italy.  Our meeting was completely unexpected as I was lost within my inner world trying to find myself.  My own soul searching brought me to my Twin Flame.

As I look back on my spiritual journey, I was brought and attracted karmic relationships with those with low self esteem and worth, those who lack abundance, and those with addictions and obsessions because these issues are within me.  These karmic relationships prepared me for the issues with my Twin Flame, and after uniting with my twin recently in January, 2017, we have been forced to face these difficult issues that we share.

Twin Flame journeys begin separately and our spiritual paths bring us closer and closer to our Twin Flames.  Even after our meeting in July, 2013, I felt unprepared for our union with my Twin Flame until I found my own Divine union, path, soul purpose, self love, and unconditional love for others.  (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)



Twin Flame Traps


As you ascend with your Twin Flames, there are some warnings I wanted to provide to those also in Twin Flame relationships.  There are many pitfalls and traps involved in this relationship just as any other, but the intensity of Twin Flame relationships can result in obsessive and co-dependent behaviors.

Because Twin Flames are friendship and passion on fire, we are essentially playing with fire.  Because we are so in tuned with our twin as we enjoy the same things, have similar professions, have similar missions, have similar hobbies, and have the same belief systems, we are completely in sync with our twins, and have great passion through tantra together,  it is not unusual to fall into these traps and pitfalls.

The energy between Twin Flames feel so comfortable and comforting, you want to spend every hour together doing absolutely everything together because we are the same.  The passion is through the roof with endless hours of tantric sexual connection.  All this good vibes can easily result in obsessing about our twin every minute of every day when we have jobs to fulfill and other life obligations.

The co-dependency occurs when we are so connected energetically, emotionally, and spiritually with our twin that we lose where they end and where we begin in this relationship.  We must be conscious and aware that we are still separate people with our own identity. Recently, I sat down with my Twin Flame to discuss these issues concerning me.

As Twin Flames, we communicate through unconditional love and compassion about these important issues. If we are to ascend with our twin, we must work together to resolve these issues that are even more pronounced due to the Twin Flame fire that fuel this intensity to a degree I have never experienced before with another.  May you find your path back on track with your Twin Flame.  (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)


Reflections From My Twin Flame


This was a tough weekend of self reflection.  My twin flame has reflected back things about myself that I do not like, and things I want to change about myself.  I still face self doubt and feelings of unworthiness.  I know that when I see him, it reflects back to me those things that are the same.  I see in him the need for approval and affirmation from others, and as I react to him, I realize these are still emotional crutches I still have within me.

In the past, I would lash out at my partners for these weaknesses, but now I realize these are things within me that I do not like, and still need to change.  My instinct is to run from these feelings and distance myself from my reality.  It is difficult to face with all the dramatic changes in my inner and outer life that I still have more work to do.

It is easy to blame our twin for our own inadequacies instead of taking ownership of things ourselves.  I no longer wish to behave this way anymore; it is time to grow up.  What is still needing this approval and affirmation within me?  Why do I still have these feelings?  What is the fear driving these behaviors?   As I proceed with my Twin Flame, I continue to heal and reflect on what needs more emotional work.

When I heal, I will help my twin to heal as well.  So my spiritual journey continues onto the next phase of emotional recovery and spiritual growth.  (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

Twin Flame Tantra


Tantra has little to do with sex at all. In my twin flame relationship, this is the first time I have experienced tantra. Tantra is about unconditional love, energetic connection through Source or Divine energy, and spiritual ascension through sacred sexuality.

People confuse tantra with sex, because it is expressed through sacred sexuality. As I experience my relationship with my twin flame, I begin to understand that tantra is about deep unconditional love for another.

As a results of this deep unconditional love, we are able to experience an otherworldly energetic and spiritual connection through Source or Divine energy. We are able to experience sexuality and sensuality very differently then sexual intercourse.

Sexual intercourse is a mere sex act. Through Tantra, we experience heightened sexuality and sensuality without the goal of orgasm, but we focus on the pleasure and connection through this deep unconditional love with our partner.

It is truly sacred, and the sexuality between twin flames is the true extension of unconditional and deep love for our twin. My experience is that we transcend physical and worldly sexual intercourse for a deep and spiritual connection with another being. (Awakening Journey Copyright 2017 with all rights reserved)