Upon the Precipice

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As mountains loom,

Touching the sky,

I rest upon the precipice,

Soaking in the afternoon sun.

Becoming, evolving, and changing,

As the clouds transform its shapes,

So am I, moving forward finding myself,

Seeking truth, love, and transcending my limitations.

My inner world becoming the shape,

It is intended to be,

For this is my adolescence,

Soon to be the woman I am to be. ~ Brooke

(Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved).

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Experiencing My Energetic Resonance

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In early March 2011, I raised my Kundalini energy spontaneously.  It was a period of turmoil, fear, anxiety, and panic for me.  During this time, the Universe sent a Kundalini active person into my life to help guide me through my Kundalini rising.  During this time, however, he entered my energy field, and was on and off in my field for about two years, that actually stabilized my Kundalini energy.  Since that time, I have transmuted my own energy field several times to higher frequencies through emotional healing or emotional release work.

Recently, he left my energy field, so that I am learning to stabilize my own Kundalini energy and learning how to be with myself.  I am feeling the surges of energy throughout my day, and learning to flow with the energy that can become overwhelming at times. I am learning to be alone, to love myself, and to continue to heal the emotional wounds of my life.

This is all part of self love that is to know thyself. It is to feel safe and blissful within our own skin and learning to accept ourselves as we are, without the dependency of another. It is growing up emotionally and spiritually. Sending infinite love, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

If You Love Someone, Set Them Free

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Today, I learned another great lesson in my life. About a year ago, I met a wonderful male friend who is very much like me.  We are like brother and sister, since we have similar parents and upbringing.  We spent lots of time outdoors hiking, kayaking, and camping with friends together.  My purpose for meeting him is because I have very few male friends I can trust because of the childhood abuse I suffered by my father.  Meeting him showed me that there are good men out there who won’t hurt me.

Several months into our friendship, he stopped communicating with me.  He started dating a woman and became very busy in his children’s lives. At first, I felt sad about losing my friends, but something in me told me to set him free.  I realized that he needed to do these things for his life that was best for him.  That was eight months ago.

This week, I received an email from him asking me to go hiking together like old times.  I was thrilled to hear from him and to have a hiking buddy again. When I saw him, I thanked him for teaching me this very important lesson, “If you love someone, set them free.”  It is a paradox that we must be prepared to set someone we love free to do what they need for their life. My friend returned to me because we are intended to be friends.  May you set your loved ones free, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

 

Our Awakening

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As I write, I speak to you.

It resonates because we are one.

We are all connected,

In this collective consciousness.

We all know each other,

Since we are travelers on the same journey,

In search of our souls,

Seeking inner peace and Divine love.

We recognize the other,

For we are all the same,

United in this spiritual realm,

That draws us here.

This is my way of sending love to you,

Of reminding you who you are.

This is why you read my writings,

It is why I speak to you. ~ Brooke

(Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Acknowledging My Losses

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I have a hard shell, and it is not something I am proud of, but there is a reason for this.  I have had to endure so much loss in my life. My grandparents who raised me from birth until 8 years old both have passed away.  At 8 years old, I was taken away from my grandparent to live with my parent, but I suffered childhood abuse with them.  As a result, I have not spoken to them in many years.

I have lost every major relationship in my life so far, and this has made me fearful of anymore losses in my life.  As a runner, I moved many times and lived in many different parts of the country. As a result, I was unable to maintain many long and deep friendships in my life. My losses and wounds caused me to grow this hard exterior to protect myself like calluses that protect our hands and feet from abrasions.  Animals and trees have developed hard exteriors over the course of evolution for the same reasons.  I am like that.

Now, I am healing my wounds through my emotional release work, and must begin to acknowledge all my losses in order to heal them.  It is through awareness of our reality, and acknowledging our own truths about ourselves before we can begin the process of transformation and change.  Do not lament my friends since we all have wounds and losses.  It is part of reality and living in this world.  May you heal your losses in your life. ~ Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Different kinds of Love

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When my Kundalini first rose, I was unable to distinguish the bliss I felt through love with a soul connection or Eros and love through touching my Divine self or Agape. These two kinds of love are sometimes inextricably entwined for some people. Kundalini energy is sexual energy and when we are connected to our Divine selves through awakening, these energies feel similar.

Now, I am able to distinguish the bliss I feel from these two types of love that are quite different for me.  The Divine love or Agape that I feel radiated through my heart chakra. It fills my heart with energy and generates this full, blissful, and overwhelming feeling of joy.  Love with a soul connection or Eros also fills my heart chakra with energy, but it is coupled with sexual energy in the sacral chakra.

Being able to tell the difference is important in that we want to feel Divine or Agape love always, while we may only want to feel Eros love with certain people who are our soul connections.  May you feel Divine love always, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

New Way to Love

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Learning a new way to love,

When I no longer take from another.

Giving what another may need,

Even if I must let them go.

It is letting them grow beyond me,

Yet I still love them just the same.

This is growing up, maturing within.

My heart is full now

And no longer in pain.

I have love for others,

Tender, kind, and gentle.

I feel this blessing deeply within me,

For I am given another chance,

To love all of you in my world. ~ Brooke

(Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Understanding Life Lessons

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In every interaction with others, there is an intended lesson.  It is recognizing the lessons we are to learn from those interactions.  My belief is that with every interaction, activity, relationship, experience, etc, there is an external purpose and an internal lesson.

For example, in my current job, I attracted a supervisor who reminds me of my mother. The external purpose for this job is to forward my career and help students, faculty, and staff at my college who have suffered sexual violence, sexual harassment, and discrimination.

My internal purpose is to resolve the unresolved emotional issues surrounding my relationship with my mother.  My mother has a serious undiagnosed psychological condition, where she exhibits paranoid thinking, fearful reactions, and unpredictable volatile behaviors.  In my current job, I have experienced the same behaviors with my supervisor, where my fears of failure, and inadequacies have been triggered. My instinct is to run from this fear.

In overcoming my fears, I first must have awareness of my fears, and reactions.  Instead of reaction to my fears, I say to myself, “Everything will be okay, and she can’t hurt you like your mother. She is not your mother, and you can protect yourself now as an adult.”  This is called “rescripting” or rewiring our emotional responses.

Essentially, this is reprogramming our old reactions to new and healthier responses.   Try this in conjunction with the emotional release work that I posted earlier, and let me know how they work for you.  Blessings and light, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)