How I Surrender

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During my spiritual journey, one of the most difficult practices is the practice of surrender.  What I have discovered about the key to surrender is our intention to accept our circumstances.  This acceptance is not just something done only within our conscious minds, it becomes our belief within us.  This belief within is powerful, as it can manifest what we wish, such as find the love of our life, find the job of our dreams, or find our chosen path and careers.

This is how it works.  We first have awareness of our situation that we must accept, then that thought is reinforced by our actions, and that thought is repeated again and again in our minds. In psychotherapy, it is called positive affirmation by repeating and reinforcing these positive thoughts.   After some time that thought becomes a belief that is then internalized within ourselves as our truth.  We then live that truth with repeated reinforced actions.

Let me give you an example.  Let’s say that our current partner in a relationship is breaking up with us, and we are hurt but we must surrender to our situation.  First, we create the thought that I must accept my situation that my partner does not wish to continue this relationship, and I know there is someone else for me out there who is my perfect partner, and always keep these thoughts positive.  Follow up with reinforced actions toward letting this person go, such as letting go of the past by deleting his/her old emails, texts, letter, other memories, and most importantly, giving up the hope for a future with that person.

Next, begin to repeat this thought that there is your perfect partner for you out there until you believe this is true, which it is.  Follow through with actions, such as begin to meet new people, not necessarily jump into another relationship, but begin to see other possibilities of a new partner for us and picturing a different future for ourselves.

The key to surrender, I believe, is to replace something negative in our lives with something positive. So when we surrender, it is seeing that our negative circumstance is really a positive one, then this positive vision or belief becomes reinforced through our repeated thoughts and subsequent actions. When we surrender, it is not just giving into a negative situation, but seeing the positive aspects of it.  Surrender is frequently coupled with forgiveness of the person who may have hurt us in the situation that we must surrender.

I hope you can use this as part of your spiritual practice, as I have found this technique helpful in surrendering to my life circumstances and accepting my perceived negative outcomes. Blessings of light, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

 

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Eternal Prayer

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Hear my prayers,

For strength and courage,

To lead me on my chosen path.

Give no power to others,

Or allow them to sway my direction.

For my higher self knows best,

In time of trouble and uncertainty,

Let the Divine within guide the way.

Without fear I move forward,

For I am stronger than I know.

Through threatening storms,

With wind and thunder,

I remain steadfast on my course.

I am powerful within my being,

And wholeness is what I feel.  ~ Brooke

(Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Clear View of My World

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My eyes see the world from a different view now with compassion, clarity, and trust.  This new perspective is a little shocking to my new senses.  As I have lived with distrust and suspicion for most of  my life, I always lived in fear of being hurt and being taken advantage of.  Recently, I am seeing the world that is crystal clear.

For the last year, I have worked with a supervisor who I distrusted and was always suspicious of her motives in undermining me.  These lenses about her fell away last night after consulting with my friends about my situation. I have come to realize that she was never trying to undermine me at all, but she was fearful for her own job, and fears losing control.

This morning, I had a vision of her childhood where she was beaten so severely that she lost consciousness.   I felt such pain and empathy for her experience, and at that moment, I sent love to her to help heal that part of her and forgave her. It is understanding others through my own pain and suffering that I feel compassion for this woman.  I understand the pain of abuse and how we can repeat the same behaviors out of self-preservation and protection from our past experiences.

My understanding of her made me realize that I must give her compassion, and understanding as I had been in the same place myself not too long ago.  My heart reaches out to her for what she endured as a child, and the pain and suffering that she experiences as an adult.  I give thanks for my own experiences in order to understand and feel compassion for others.  With love to you, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with all Rights Reserved)

Freedom through Closure

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In my life, I have gotten very little closure from the people I loved.  They were either unwilling or unable to give me the closure I needed.  I have come to a new understanding about closure. It is something we give to ourselves.  Closure is a way of coming to acceptance about a relationship, our life, and our circumstances.  

For a long time, I gave away this power by looking to others for this closure. It is unrealistic to find closure through another, since that closure must be found within ourselves.  We hold this power within, and when I began to realize this about my own life, I began to free myself from my own illusions.  Sometimes, we need to open our eyes to awaken to what is really before us, and see our reality and the obstacles before us.  

This clarity is the truth we need to find closure for ourselves.  What are our obstacles?  How will our reality manifest with these obstacles?   As we come closer and closer to our truth, we begin to have clarity about how to best proceed in our lives.  We see what is really before us, and all the illusions and fantasies fall away leaving us with our own truth.

This is where I have arrived to face my reality head on without illusion and fantasies. Sometimes our truth will simply set us free.  May you set yourself free. ~ Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved) 

Ode to the Serpent Goddess

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Serpent Goddess © Scarlet Phoebe, 2013

The Serpent Goddess rises within me,

Bringing new life,

With breadth of power.

She rises without warning,

In splendor of energy,

Awakening the wonders within me.

As she flows through me,

Uniting me with my soul,

Heart pulsing with overflowing love.

Radiating and bursting into light,

Until I am transformed within.

I am she in this brilliant moment,

As we become one,

When I finally see my own wholeness. ~ Brooke

(Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Right Reserved)

 

In the Light of Self Love

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In the last two weeks, I have felt much release of the emotional hurt and pain from the abuse by my father. However, I still felt terrible tension physically in my body as I was unable to physically release the pain. Last night, I went for a massage to help with this situation.  My massage therapist turns out to be a psychic who shared information with me about what she sensed about me. 

She told me that I was holding anger in my back that I felt and was the reason for the massage.  She also saw children in my life that I recently have felt very close to me. I asked if they were students who I have been working with at my college, and she said, no that they are younger.  She further told me that she felt this incredible light from me that is powerful, and that I am already whole, but that I just don’t see it for myself.  I have never felt powerful, because of my childhood abuse, and I always felt fearful, timid, and powerless as a victim.  

Now that I no longer feel like a victim, I must embrace this power within me. She further shared with me that I have been working and working as if to prove that I am good enough, and now I must just recognize that I am already whole.  She said that I only need to be by beginning to learn to be a whole person now.  Recently, I have come to accept and love myself for who I am, and although I am flawed and human, I still feel worthy of unconditional love, forgiveness and compassion.  I believe that it is through my suffering and hardships that I have come to accept this about myself and love myself despite my flaws and shortcomings.

 It is also through my acknowledgment of this about myself that I am able to unconditionally love others, forgive them for their flaws and shortcomings, and give them compassion and understanding for their mistakes and hurt they caused.  Through my own suffering and hardships, I have come to feel the light of this self love.  I am grateful for all that I have learned. ~ Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

 

Practicing Emotional Release

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I have received some questions recently on how to trigger the deep emotional pain in order to practice emotional release as described and found under “Emotional Release Practice,” tab on my Blog Homepage.  I use several methods, including listening to certain music, writing music, creating art, and watching certain movies.

Let me give you an example.  Recently, I was informed by my doctor that I have contracted a virus that can cause cancer.  One of my greatest fears is dying alone, as I am not close to my parents due to my childhood abuse, and do not have a family of my own.  I knew after this diagnosis that I must confront and resolve this deep rooted emotional fear that easily can be triggered in my painbody stored in my emotional landscape.

So, I watched a movie called, “A Little Bit of Heaven” that involved a young woman who was afraid of loving men for fear of being hurt and abandoned because her father betrayed and abandoned her and her mother.  As a single women living alone, she was diagnosed with cancer and the movie is about her coming to terms with her own death.

This movie triggered all the pain that I felt deep inside, and I cried until I had no more tears. I also did the Emotional Release Practice after this movie. This movie also was uplifting in that this woman found and resolved the issues that haunted her, and she was able to accept the love of a man who truly loved and cared for her until her death.

This is just one way among many to trigger deep rooted pain.  We must release this pain within us as it remains within our energy bodies as blockages, and this pain prevents us from experiencing a happy and joyful life.  When we release this emotional pain one layer at a time until all the pain is released, then we will experience peace and serenity in our lives that we have forgotten.  Sending healing love, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Reflections of Healing

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Today is the first day of class at my college, and I am taking this opportunity to reflect upon all the emotional work and spiritual practice from this summer.  As my job at this college is working with victims of sexual violence, it is important for me to overcome and heal from my own sexual and physical abuse in my life.  This was my objective for this summer to heal my painbody and begin to release ego, so I can be more effective in working with students experiencing sexual violence.

About a week and a half ago, I released the hurt and pain that I harbored against my father. After the release, the lenses of victimhood and abuse fell away allowing me to see the world in a completely different way. The clarity in which I see everyone and everything astounded me that I completely did not expect.  It is quite a shock to me as I no longer see the world through my ego full of fear, doubt, and distrust.

I believe I was able to experience this change because I began to work intensively on releasing my ego, and only after this work was I able to let go of the pain from abuse involving my father. This major breakthrough in my emotional healing work will change the course of my life forever, allowing me to have healthier relationships with others, live with less fear, doubt, and distrust, and finally give me the peace that I prayed for since the age of eight.  I have given myself another chance in my own life.  Love and light, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)

Acceptance through Unconditional Love

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Today, I learned how to come to full acceptance of my life no matter what is before me.  It is through unconditional love of those in our lives.  It is to give this love unconditionally no matter what had happened before with others.  It is telling them how you truly feel about them, and remembering to tell them how much you love and care for them.

It is through this act of love and compassion that we can come to acceptance no matter what happens in our lives, whether we have been rejected by others, whether we must face our own death or death of a loved one, or face loss in our lives.  Through grace, we can finally come to acceptance of whatever is before us when we tell those we love that we still love them and will miss them terribly, even when we will not be in their lives.  Coming to acceptance is loving others in the face of this loss.

This grace is the Divine within each of us.  Through this grace, we accept the cycle of life.  I always have believed that we will see all the people in our lives again in another lifetime, even if we cannot be with them in this lifetime.  So really, there is no true loss at all, but there is only unconditional love remaining in our hearts for them.  Sending my love, Brooke (Copyright 2013 Kundalini Spirit with All Rights Reserved)