Through shadows cast by light through my window,
I see myself in reality.
As I yearn for truth in my world,
So fear may be there to greet me.
Courage is but a whisper,
Urging me to move forward,
And my heart grows with each step.
Learn to trust are the words of wisdom,
As my higher self guides me forward.
Dusk casts its fading light,
Onto my heart through surrender.
All will be right,
When my heart is no longer afraid.
(Copyright 2014 Awakening Journey with all rights reserved)
Last night, I had a release in my heart chakra that I have never felt before. During my last Reiki treatment, my practitioner observed a blockage in the center of my heart chakra. She saw this blockage in my heart chakra as a result of my trying to protect myself from further injury and hurt. Last night, I felt waves of fear flowing from my heart chakra that lasted what seems to be hours. These waves felt like the most horrible fears that I can imagine in different aspects of my life.
Trust has been difficult for me because of the abuse, trauma, abandonment, and betrayal that I have experienced in numerous lifetimes. I am releasing all my fears now in order to trust in my life. Even if I don’t trust certain people I encounter, it will not be due to my fear from my past. I will be able to see my reality clearly so that I am not seeing my world through the clouded lenses affected by my past.
I have observed many people some who are Kundalini active and are not. What I have seen is that those who have courage will move forward on their spiritual path through emotionally healing and releasing ego. Those who are not will remain stuck in their soul lives in the same dysfunctions and suffering.
Even Kundalini active individuals can remain stuck for many soul lives as they have refused to do the required emotional healing and ego releasing in order to ascend spiritually. Some Kundalini active individuals and even those who are spiritual teachers can experience spiritual bypass attempting to bypass the required emotional healing and releasing ego work to ascend. They too will remain stuck in their soul lives.
“Only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” as stated eloquently by Franklin D. Roosevelt. For courage is the path to overcoming all our fears to make spiritual ascension possible. (Copyright 2014 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
I have wondered who we would attract into our lives when we have completed the ascension process. Do we only attract people like Jesus, Buddha, Muhammad, etc.? I don’t know the answer to this. What I do know is the three Universal laws that is the Law of Vibration, Law of Perpetual Transmutation of Energy, and Law of Attraction, are the trifecta that determines who we attract during the ascension process.
The Law of Vibration states that everything in the Universe moves, vibrates, and travels in circular patterns. The same principles of vibration in the physical world apply to our thoughts, feelings, desires, and wills in the Etheric world. Each sound, thing, and even thought has its own vibrational frequency, unique unto itself. This determines the fundamental vibrational frequency for each person.
The Law of Perpetual Transmutation of Energy is a powerful one. It states that all persons have within them the power to change the conditions in their lives. Higher vibrations consume and transform lower ones; thus, each of us can change the energies in our lives by understanding the Universal Laws and applying the principles in such a way as to effect change. When we practice ascension work by healing our emotional wounds, we can transmute our lower vibrational energies to higher ones, release our egos, and thus, grow spiritually.
The Law of Attraction demonstrates how we create the things, events, and people who come into our lives. Our thoughts, feelings, words, and actions produce energies which, in turn, attract like energies. Negative energies attract negative energies and positive energies attract positive energies.
As such, we emit certain vibrational frequency under the Law of Vibration, and can change that vibrational frequency to a higher vibration under the Law of Perpetual Transmutation of Energy as we progress during our ascension work, then under the Law of Attraction, we attract other like energies. We then will attract what we are, and we will attract closer and closer to what we want for our lives.
From a personal perspective, I have felt less and less attraction to those around me, but feel a more neutral type of love toward most people. As I proceed in my ascension process, I hope to kleen more insights into this phenomenon. (Copyright 2014 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
Recently, I am experiencing a shift within my emotional landscape. These changes have to do with letting go of the emotional pain I have hung onto for many lifetimes. It is letting go of the emotional pain in this lifetime from my abuse at the hands of my father, and growing up with a mentally ill and jealous mother who could not protect me. In letting go of our past emotional pain, the people in our current lives begin to appear very different as we are seeing them through very different lenses. The victim lenses that I saw my world is beginning to fall away.
As all of this emotional pain is released through “Emotional Release Practice” found at this tab on my Blogsite Homepage, I see that love lies beneath this pain. I realize how deeply I love my father, and how much I have missed him in my life. I begin to forgive the emotional wounds in my mother too that has clouded her vision of her world that made her a victim as well. In truth, my family members all perceive ourselves as victims blaming others around us for our own emotional pain.
In my new world, I will be working this years toward reuniting with my parents in the hopes of having a different relationship with them based on compassion, forgiveness, and love. It is not trying to recreate a past that we did not have, but to create a new future that we can have together now. I can not change my family, but I changed myself in order to be with them. Isn’t that what love is? (Copyright 2014 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
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I am experiencing what I believe to be the second major shift in my Kundalini life after the recent solar eclipse and the Divine union of my masculine and feminine energies. During the first shift, I left my marriage, changed careers, left the town I lived in, and left most of my friends. This shift will cause me to change my life dramatically again for the second time since the rise of my Kundalini in March 2011.
If you follow my blog then you know that grounding our Kundalini energy through methods discussed in “Stabilizing Kundalini Energy” found at the tab on my Blogsite Homepage is the first step to stabilizing our Kundalini energy. The next and more important step to permanently stabilize our Kundalini energy is to heal our past emotional wounds needed to clear our chakras and energy body of blockages, through “Observing Ego Practice” to cope with fears brought up by the healing process, and “Emotional Release Practice” to help heal past emotional pain, both found at these tabs on my Blogsite Homepage.
As I have been diligently healing my past emotional wounds for three and half years, I have worked through many of my emotional issues within my current lifetime. Please see the “Kundalini Recovery Process” tab on my Blogsite Homepage for the steps of the Kundalini recovery process. However, our painbody within our energy body stores emotional pain from our previous lifetimes as well. I am now working through emotional pain from my past lifetimes with my Reiki practitioner.
During our session today, we worked through one past lifetime, when I was male, and my mother die when I was young. As I was not raised in the safety of my mother, I was very sickly with some form of throat disease or injury, and felt very weak as a man. This explains my feeling of powerlessness in this lifetime. Today, I worked through my throat and heart chakra blockages caused by this physical injury and the distrust in my heart resulting from being raised by others as I did not have my mother to protect me. Ironically, in later lifetimes, I attracted mothers who were unable or unwilling to protect me.
As I concluded my Reiki session today, my practitioner said, we have done everything that you and I can do, now we must allow grace to take over to heal the rest and help in your shift to the next phase of your Kundalini life. With patience, I await my transition through grace. (Copyright 2014 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)
My awakening journey has not been an easy one. When my Kundalini energy was awakened, I was still struggling with emotional issues from my childhood trauma. I was struggling with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, general anxiety, and bouts of depression. I also struggled with physical pain from the blockages in my chakras caused by my unresolved emotional issues. These symptoms were severely enhanced by my Kundalini energy making the rising of my energy extremely difficult.
Although my initial struggles were very difficult, in three years as I understand it is a relatively short period, I stabilized my Kundalini energy. Now, I live a relatively normal life, as I am able to work, and interact with others better than I ever have before. After my recent Divine Union of my inner masculine and feminine energies, I wanted to test out how much healing and emotional recovery I really have done.
There are two people in particular who trigger my past trauma, but if I am healed, then I would not be triggered. I would look at photos of them or read their words, but a miraculous thing has happened. I feel very detached and unafraid now as I see them. These individuals no longer trigger those fears within me. I see them in their lives with their friends or loved ones, and I simply see them as I see other people. This response shows me that I am healing emotionally and on the road to wholeness.
In the past year, I have sheltered myself after a very painful breakup with someone I fell in love with, although he was unable to return my love. It broke my heart, and I protected myself from being hurt again. As I have spent the last year mending my heart in the hopes that someday soon, I can love again without fear. I have great hopes for my future. (Copyright 2014 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)