My true awakening did not occurred until I went through very dark parts of my reality. I realize who I attracted into my life was who I was. I attract such darkness into my life that I am stunned to awake from this nightmare. When I finally awoke recently, my attraction to those I attracted earlier vanished, but I remain stunned that the attraction ever existed. The question I ask myself now is why and how could this have happened to me?
My illusion was that I believed I had resolved my childhood abuse issues, but my reality of attracting and being attracted to a person who sexually assaulted me, gave me a deadly sexually transmitted disease, and had other romantic interests while dating me, and people who are dishonet and manipulative, including using others for their personal and financial gain, was a sure sign that I was far from resolving and healing my emotional wounds.
This true awakening threw me for quite a loop, as I am still reeling from this revelation. I cannot blame others for my own attraction to them as it is who I was within. I realize that I have finally awaken because I see my reality for what it really is. In order for me to make a dramatic change in my life, I must be willing to see my reality, and no longer live in the illusion I created for my myself. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with all right reserved)