Yesterday, I said good-bye to my mother. It was mixture for empathy, sadness, and relief. For the last four years, I worked for a woman who resembles my mother emotionally and psychologically and is very mentally troubled and emotionally wounded. During these four years, she was manipulative, abusive, and cruel toward others, particularly her subordinates who refused to obey her crazy and harmful orders.
During this time, however, she helped me understand my mother, forgive her, and let her go. Yesterday, the successor of my supervisor came to our college to meet the campus. There was my supervisor standing in the corner of the reception room alone, as she watched another take over power. I know this was the worst moment of her career, dethroned and ashamed as she was requested to leave.
As I observed her in her moment of sorrow, I felt a pang of empathy for her while she faced her own karma as this was the moment that she either faced her negative behaviors causing these negative outcomes, or continue to blame others for these outcomes. I sent her love and said good-bye to her. I realized yesterday that this phase of my work with my mother is finally done. It was melancholy after a long and arduous journey to overcome my fears of my mentally ill, unpredictable, and irrational mother.
This work is finally done, and what an achievement! I finally came to terms with who my mother truly is and who no longer can harm me. This is real freedom from the hell I lived as a child. May you find freedom from your past. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)