This journey of self discovery is one that surprises me constantly. Just when I think I have figured things out, then I realize that it isn’t my path at all, but an illusion of what my ego has planned. This realization can be distressing to the psyche, but one that is intended if we wish to awaken from the sleep of unconscious life while living on automatic pilot.
My life is such a life of bittersweet revelations that is just the opposite of what I expected. When I thought I was in love with someone, I was intended to learn a life lesson about my self worth, forgiveness, and compassion. When I encountered someone who annoyed me and I disliked, I was intended to learn patience and unconditional love for myself. When I worked for a tyrant who controlled me, I was intended to learn to take back my own power, and self determination. When I finally learned to love myself, I no longer sought that love from my family and others, and learned to let go.
When I began my spiritual journey in March 2011, these revelations and subsequent outcomes were not what I expected at all. Every realization about myself has moved me forward in a direction that I never planned, but one that is my path now. Without these encounters with those I attracted, I would not be where I am now. I realize now that they were brought to me to show me who I am within, and who I must come to acceptance or change. These are my choices and this is my life to make and a life that is waiting for me. (Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)