Today is an important day on my spiritual journey. I let go of what was, so to look forward to what is waiting for me. It has been a monumental struggle to emotionally let go of those who hurt me. Today however, I felt no pain and the tears stop coming. That is how I know the mourning is over, the pain is released, and I finally let them go by forgiving them.
It is truly my own perceptions of those who hurt me that has changed as they have remained the same. The lenses through which I saw them, the need for their love and approval, and what they never offered me are no longer a source of pain and suffering. What they do now no longer bother me, as I no longer view their actions or lack of action toward me to determine my self worth. I am finally free from the prison I built for myself as I earlier gave away my power to them.
This is the beginning of my future, the one I have dreamed of with healthy, loving, kind, and caring friends, companions, and lovers in my life. It is the most liberating experience. As a child, I so wanted a different life for myself. I no longer want to pacify and pander to others to be loved as I deserve to be loved for who I am . If others don’t like or love me, although regrettable, it is truly not my problem because I still love myself.
I finally feel powerful now, and believe I can achieve whatever endeavors I seek. This is the power of emotional healing and our ability to overcome even the most horrific of pasts. I faced violence and abuse in my life, but I survived, and am granted the honor of living the life I dreamed as a child. May you find the life of your dreams. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)