In the course of the evolution of my life, I have come full circle in seeing my spiritual path. As you may know, our spiritual paths are not linear or a straight line, but rather spirals moving ever upward. I am now reflecting on an earlier part of my spiritual path, but from a different vantage point.
When I began my current lifetime, my soul already had experienced trauma from past lifetimes. As a young child, I experienced abuse by and trauma caused by my parents. Since that time, I entered into many similarly destructive and hurtful relationships as an adult with lovers and friends. I was attracted to others like myself who loathed themselves.
Most individuals I attracted and felt attracted to were judgmental, critical, hurtful, insecure, and angry. The reason for this attraction was that I was just like them. Internally, I felt hateful toward myself, felt shame about who I was, and blamed others for my own unhappiness and emotional pain. Unfortunately, this was who I was.
As a result, I felt attracted to others with this trauma energy. This was what trauma energy felt like to me. It felt familiar, felt like love to me, and felt sexually exciting. There was this overpowering yearning or magnetic attraction for me to this trauma energy. I could not will myself away from it, and I do not believe it is possible to will ourselves away from this trauma energy if we have this similar energy within us.
I began to change my attraction to this trauma energy by altering my vibrational frequency through modifying my negative thoughts to positive thoughts, change my attitudes and behaviors toward myself from self loathing to self loving, and began to heal my emotional wounds and trauma. I share my technique called, “Emotional Release Practice,” to learn how to heal your emotional wounds.
It has been a long and difficult journey of facing my own demons and darkness, but it is a journey that has changed my soul life forever for the better. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)