You know you have reached a different place in your emotional and spiritual growth and transformation when what earlier caused anger, now creates compassion. In my job at my college where I work, I help students, faculty, and staff who have been sexually assaulted, physically assualted in their interpersonal relationships, stalked, discriminated against, and harassed. I assist the most marginized and vulnerable people on this campus.
In the past few days, I found out that a group of people at my college call me a rooster and make mocking noises about me behind my back. Even worse, they made many attempts to sabotage my efforts to help others here. Because of my work that empowers victims, I am a threat to many who are in power, and they fear being exposed for their wrong doings.
In the past, finding out about being mocked and laughed at would have triggered anger and resentment within me, and I would feel depressed for weeks. Now, my reaction is that I feel compassion for those who need to mock, belittle, and bully others. They must face themselves in the mirror everyday for who they are and the harm they have caused others. They live in the hell of their own creation that is their life and existence.
I feel nothing but sorrow and pity for such broken people, and the utter hell that they must face and experience about themselves everyday. The truth is that it is not I who is injured by their actions, as I have healed the emotional wounds of my past and no longer can be triggered. However, their emotional wounds are fresh and exposed for all the world to see and be judged.
Only through love and forgiveness can darkness be driven out as hate cannot do that. I truly feel sorry for them, and I say a prayer for their healing. “Please help these people heal their wounds, and save them from their own destruction. Amen.” (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)