Today is the day of letting go, and moving forward. In this process, we leave those we care about and love behind us as we must grow and move on our journey forward. It is a difficult place of sadness as we have outgrown our current life and many in this current life. I realize now why I recently have not been successfully able to move foward. When we feel unprepared to move forward, we do not move foward.
The Universe will respond to our thoughts and feelings. However if our thoughts and feelings conflict with what we want to manifest then we cannot create it in our lives. This has been the problem for me. I want to create a new life for myself, but I am conflicted about leaving my current life behind. Therefore, these thoughts and feelings are sent out to the Universe, and I am unable to manifest the future I wish.
In my heart, I believe that I deserve better than the job I have and the relationships that I have attracted. In my job and relationships, I have been repeatedly abused, oppressed, and mistreated. Because of my childhood abuse history, I have tolerated this unkind treatment. Now, as I reflect upon my life, I know I deserve so much better. I deserve to be treated with respect and honesty. Unfortunately, this did not happen for me.
I want to help those at the college where I work, but I also deserve a better life for myself. It is with sadness that I must depart from here for a better and different life. I must leave others behind for them to save themselves as I feel I have learned my lessons here. I regret my departure will upset others, but I am unhappy here and no longer understand my purpose. It is because my work here is done, and I need to find my direction forward. Sometimes, the hardest thing to do is leave for a new life as we cannot take our old life with us. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)