My Guides Along My Path

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This morning as I was driving to work, I realized that the men in my life have been my guides on my spiritual journey.  These men taught me many lessons about myself, and brought me to places I never would have gone alone.  These men showed me how to stand up for myself as many abused me, emotionally, physically, and sexually.  Others showed me the world by traveling with me.  Some brought me to places to do my spiritual work.  Others showed me the next step on my journey forward.

For some reason, none of them stay in my life as I move past them after several years.  Maybe it is the nature of guides to point the way, but they do not necessarily travel on the path with us?  I also meet them under unusual circumstances.  For instance, I met my ex-husband in Alaska, and he turned out to live within 6 hours from where I was living at the time.

Three years ago, I met my next guide in Cinque Terra, Italy who shows me that I am finally ready to re-engage with my family after being away for many years. He just happens to live near my family in California.  He is a spiritual man who is an art teacher, painter, sculptor, and musician.   I don’t know if he will remain in my life, or he will be like the others who do not travel forward with me.

In each of these relationships, I needed them to serve as my guide to become the woman I ultimately will become.  Therefore, I have no regrets because without them, I would not have become the woman I am today. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

 

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The Transformation

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As some of my readers know, I have evolved so much recently, and I have decided to take the next big step on my journey.  I had a poignant conversation with someone in my life who I love dearly.  My friend is like a little sister to me, and I am leaving her as I move forward.  As I clean out my closets during my move as it is symbolic of clearing out my emotional closet, I am giving away many of my possessions.

For two weeks, I waited for my friend to pick up these items that I set aside for her. Repeatedly, she was delayed, and postponed picking up these itmes.  Finally, I texted her and explained about my putting my house on the market as I intend to leave here, and that I can no longer wait for her to pick up these items.  I decided to just drop off these items at her home.

As I saw her that day, she said, “You are leaving me.”  I did not feel guilty by her words, but simply replied, “I have out grown this place, and must move forward. I can’t tell you how excited I am about my new life.”  I no longer react to others, but simply state my reasons very calmly.   I just tell people that this is what I must do, and it is not personal to them.

This above exchange is quite symbolic of my recent evolution.  As others are caught up in their every day details of living and egos, I see a path before me with my higher self guiding me on my journey forward.  My life is simply different now, as I feel a purpose and direction for my life.  I know what I need to serve my higher purpose in helping others.

I am clear about my direction in my personal life too.  My higher self tells me to take on challenges, and not to be afraid. Even if the relationship fails, I must try as it will serve a purpose for my soul growth.  I live more fearlessly now, and my world opens up beyond the minutia of life and ego.  It is a powerful experience, and I am humbled by it. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

 

Feeling Human

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Today is a day that I feel so very human.  I lost my cool because everything I scheduled this weekend did not work out.  All my scheduled appointments were canceled, and I think my patience was being tested.  In every situation, I tried to take a deep breath, and tried to go with the flow.

When I realized that I had reached my breaking point, I came home to just chill, take a nap, and listen to calming music.  I just had to laugh at myself for getting so bent out of shape as I am trying to sell my house, but there are a hundred little things that need to be fixed, painted, and done before it goes on the market.

I know in five years, I will not even remember this day, but it will be a faded memory without any significance.  I know that I will be excited when I sell my house, move to another part of the country, meet people more like the new me, and move forward on my journey. These are the things I am trying to focus on rather than the frustrating minor details of life.

As I wind down my time here, I am frequenting my favoriate restaurants, seeing places that I have not had time to visit, and enjoy all the things my current home has to offer.  It has been such a growing experience for me here and frequently pushing me to the limits of my comfort zone.  I am very proud of what I have accomplished in these past five years, but I am ready to move forward onto the next phase of my life.

I am reminding myself to be patient and trying to stay calm by taking each day as it comes.  May you find your path forward on your journey. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

 

New Season of Life

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Before my recent experience, I never truly believed the above meme.  I have outgrown others before, but now it’s so dramatic that I know almost instantly when others do not fit into my current life.  The negativity I observe in others no longer conforms to my current existence.  This negativity include drama, chaos, judgment, discord, conflict, resentment, and turmoil.  I no longer tolerate these negative behaviors from others.

For instance in the past, affairs, violations of trust, triangulation, lying, deceit, selfishness, and abuse were tolerated in my life.  I allowed others to drag me into their drama with others and where I enabled this drama.  Others would bring their chaos into my life which was self created, and I allowed this.  People in my life would circulate rumors and gossip, and cause strife, discord, and turmoil.

In my current life, the first time I hear someone complaining about their ex-spouse, ex-partner, their family members, etc.   I run the opposite way from them.  I no longer allow triangulation which is to tell a third-party about how you dislike a second-party.  This is how affairs occur as one would tell a thirt-party lover how horrible their spouse is.  It is purely the need to create drama and turmoil.

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On many levels, I do not believe people including myself were even aware of these destructive behaviors.  These are learned negative behaviors caused by our emotional wounds.  It is only after I stopped these behaviors in my life that I realized that negative people need this like breathing.  It becomes automatic and without awareness.

This drama fuels the negative energy needed to exists in their current negative energetic states that is full of hurt, pain, and suffering.  As we continue these thoughts, behaviors, and actions, the hurt, pain, and suffering persist.  Around and around this negative energy is regenerated and continues.  Until we have awareness of these behaviors, they will simply continue until we take affirmative action to change them.(Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

 

 

The Science of Smudging: How Sage Actually Cleans Bacteria In The Air

The practice of smudging dates back to prehistoric times, and is still very much in use today worldwide for cleansing everything from dwellings to human spirits. However recent research has shed light on the popularity of this activity, revealing that burning certain plant matter actually clears harmful bacteria. All Western use of burning herbs and…

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Living the Miracle

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When we begin to heal ourselves, learn to love ourselves, and let go of people and things that no longer serve us, there are miracles and great rewards awaiting us.  Today was this miracle day for me.  For the past several months, my inner voice has been telling me how to proceed.  As a stubborn human being, I saw dreams and visions, but was skeptical about them.

My inner voice has been telling me to sell my house, that I will find a job in California to continue working with sexual assault victims, and that I will build a Reiki practice in California.  She tells me to find a house with a studio space for my Reiki practice and that I will find clients without even advertising because of my genuine wish to help others will bring clients to me.  She tells me that I will have a partner in my life, and I will make peace with my family.

For some time, I wondered if it would come true.  I began just as she advised, by getting certified as a Reiki Master, preparing my  house for sale, and looking for jobs in California.  Well, today I am one step closer to this reality as a job in California materialized that is perfect for me.  The job is just as I had hoped with only additional staffing needed in this office.   The region is affordable for me to live with my income near mountains and a long bike trail for recreation.  It also is one of the best areas to start a small business.  Now, what are the chances of this?

It happened just as I saw in my vision as it appeared on my computer screen today.  I will find the perfect house to rent with a studio space for my Reiki practice, and my life will fall into place just as she tells me.  I am a true believer of miracles now.  Blessed be.  (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)