During this period of my emotional healing and spiritual work, I finally am understanding what it’s like to love oneself. It is not narcissitic, but self love is the beginning of unconditional love for others and humanity. I see the world in beauty, kindness, and possibilities. It brings tears to my eyes to see what is possible for humanity instead of the destruction, hurt, and pain that exists, particularly on this September 11.
It is fear and self hatred that create pain, destruction, and hurt within our world. As I encounter others and observe their energy fields or auras, the dominant emotions that I sense and observe is fear. The next most prounoucend emotion is self loathing or hatred. When I am in others energy fields, I feel rather ill and distressed as the pain and hurt that they endure can be intolerable. This was the pain and hurt that I experienced for most of my own life.
As I progress further and further into my spiritual healing work, I experience periods of bliss, joy, and peace that I have never experienced before as I begin to like myself more and more. There is little monkey chatter or the negative and mindless voices within my mind. I feel silence and peace in my mind, and fear feels like a distant memory. This is not to say that I never feel fear, since without fear, we can be injured and harmed by predators.
The difference is that I no longer feel extreme anxiety, or perceived fear. Anxiety is fear that may never materialize. It is the mind’s mechanism of making us believe that we are safer if we fight or prevent these perceived fears. It is Don Quixote fighting the windmills that were never a threat in the first place. Think about it? When we are able to observe our minds perceiving fear or anxiety, tell yourself it is only in your mind and it is not real.
As we overcome our fears and begin to like who we are, our lives begin to change for the better. The pain and hurt begin to become a distant memory, and we begin to live the life that we deserve as those perceived fears no longer control us. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All RIghts Reserved)