I have been going through a phase where everything in my life appears on its face to be going wrong. My visits with friends are making me feel ill. I feel disconnected from my job that at one point served as my purpose in life. My current life feels all out of kilter. What I have come to realize that is happening is that old energy is clearing out.
What felt comfortable and normal to me earlier in my life no longer fits or feels comfortable now. I am now aware daily that as I change, I need to make changes in my life. I realize that I may not be resonating at the same frequency as I had earlier in my life. Many things are falling away as what attracted me earlier, no longer attracts me now.
It is disconcerting to me as my mind has not caught up with these changes. This dramatic change has occurred even within the last year. My mind feels confused by what is happening. Why don’t I respond the same way to people, situations, and events as I did earlier? I am elated by this change, but I am changing faster than my mind is able to keep up.
This period of my emotional growth spurt is encouraging me to move to another part of the country to meet new people, start a new job, and begin the next phase of my life. This morning during my preparation for my eventual relocation, I began crying and mourning my past as I release it and let it go. My past has served its purpose, but I will miss certain things about it.
Ironically, I also realize that if I want to move forward, I must let go of people, things, and events of my past. It is bittersweet. Good-bye, I have no regrets and I will miss you all. Sending love from afar. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)