On our Kundalini awakening journey, we, like the serpent, shed our skin until we find our authentic selves. On this journey, we shed the layers of our smaller selves created through lifetimes of trauma, suffering, and negative experiences. On this journey, we shed the parts of us that no longer fit who we have become.
It is letting go of our egos. This is our ego who judge and criticize ourselves and others. It is the emotionally wounded parts of us who fear not being good enough, worthy enough, or lovable. It is the part of us who cannot take responsibility for our own actions, and blame others for our decisions and behaviors. It is our egos who operate through fear and see only the negative aspects of our lives.
Recently, I began to clear out my life to include distancing myself from those who longer resonate at my current frequency. I cleared out my closet of things and belonging that no longer fit me or that I use. I have given many things away to others. I began to change my lifestyle as in the past I feared gaining weight so I deprived myself of fattening foods to stay thin. Now, I am only slightly heavier, but much happier as I enjoy ice cream, bread, and pasta.
The fear of not being loved because I am not good enough, not thin enough, or not pretty enough is no longer part of my life. I know that whoever I am becoming, I will be loved for who I am. I do not fear being criticized for how I dress, how I wear my hair, and how I wear my makeup. Those inidividuals are no longer welcome in my life, and I no longer need their approval for my existence as they represent my father and mother.
How freeing is this to accept and love myself without the approval of anyone else? I am so very grateful to finally find my way on my journey, finally letting go of my ego, and shedding all the people, possessions, and situations that no longer fit me and my new life. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)