For four years, I was unable to let go of a really awful and destructive relationship. It had every possible destructive aspects to it. There was lying, cheating, abuse, addiction, betrayal, deception, infidelity, among others. What bound me to this man was that I too had all of these destructicve aspects to me, so like a magnet, I was attracted to this man with similar destructions.
In retrospect, it was just horrible, and I will never repeat this again in my life. I am still trying to overcome the shame associated with allowing myself to be mistreated in such a way by this man, and to be associated with such individuals. I am forgiving myself for being totally deceived by this man.
As soon as I let him go and let go of the destruction in my life, I began to see my world so differently. When I finally accepted the end of that relationship, I was able to see men who are kind in my life as romantic possibilities. It was as if I was blinded and could not even see what was before me.
Now, I am begining to build something new in my life, and leaving the destruction of my past behind me. We must accept the end of something in order to begin to build something new. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)