This morning, I wrote on my FB page about breaking community patterns and urged my FB friends as follows:
“Remember, there is a lesson in everything we experience. Maybe this is America’s lesson. Instead of waiting for our President to protect its people, it is time for each of us to do more to help those who are marginalized. We are not victims of our circumstances when we stand up and empower others who need our help!”
In my own life, I have begun to break old patterns. My pattern looks like this. I attract and engage with others with dysfunctional behaviors and thinking. For example, I had a friend who will not acknowledge what is happening in our friendship as she does not support me, she does not want to see me happy, and does not understand or support my spiritual journey. She holds me back as she is unable to move forward herself. When I confront her about this, she lashes out, becomes anxious, and then engages in acting out drama behaviors .
This is how it feels to me. I do not look forward to seeing her, every time I engage with her I cannot be myself, her needs and demands overshadow everyone around her, and now I do not feel connected to her. This is an old pattern of mine as I also engaged in similar behaviors. It is the pattern that I am trying to break.
My higher self tells me that if I can break this pattern that I will find a different life with different kinds of friends. This friend also repeatedly pursuades me to stay in this pattern with her by staying at my current jobs and in my current life. When I share about my new relationship, she is jealous, and it appears that she does not encourage me to be in any relationship.
Recently, I made a difficult decision to break free from her. It is regrettable, but when we break patterns, we also must leave those behind who continue to engage in these old patterns. It is like an alcoholic who wants to give up their addiction to alcohol. In order to succeed, they must give up their drinking buddies.
It was a difficult decision for me, but I believe it is the right decision for my journey forward. May you find the strength to break old patterns. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)