Most of us may not even realize it, but we live with constant fear nearly every minute of every day. Fear is not just about being frightened about any particular thing, person, or event, it is a mental state. This is what I feared. I feared change, abandonment, rejection, trusting others, being unlovable, being unworthy, being alone, and being injured again.
The problem with this fearful mental state is that we do not take any risks, and cannot grow or move forward. Although I wanted very much to move foward, I was stuck and living in the purgatory of this mental state. I lived in this misery for a long time.
Another problem with living in this fearful mental state is that we will attract this exact energy that we fear. Like energy attracts like energy, and I met others who abandoned me, rejected me, told me I was unworthy, deceived and lied to me, or physically or sexually injured me. I created more misery for myself, and lived in this misery for a very long time.
The third problem is that our perceptions because of our fears will keep us in this fearful mental loop. If we fear being abandoned, we attract this energy into our lives, and then we are abandoned by them. We convince ourselves that we are victims because what we fear actually came true so others are doing this to us just like we fear. This is called victim mentally, and I lived in this misery for a even longer time.
A critical part of moving forward and overcoming these fears is our willingness to face our own fears. This is what I did. I decided to leave my marriage and live alone because I fear being alone. I purchased a house and a car on my own. I began to change my life first with small things like standing up for myself, uncluttering my life as I can be a hoarder, and learned to set healthy boundaries.
I began to work on my self worth and esteem by learning to accept who I am, including my light and darkness, with the belief that I can overcome my darkness. I began to take care of myself by going to the doctor, exercising, eating healthier, and making better life choices. I coupled these efforts with emotional release practice, and other healing modalities. Please see my earlier post on “Emotional Release Practice.”
In other words, I began to work on myself by looking inward, and taking responsibilty for my own life choices. With these efforts, my life started to change as I began attracting different people, situations, and events into my life that was different from my earlier life. This is how I know what I am doing is actually working.
When we confront our fears, and take responsibility for our life choices, we begin to attract very different energy into our life, and the outcomes reflect this new energy. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)