Building Trust

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As many of my readers know about my history, my father was a philanderer who lied to my family to hide his philandering. As an adult, I became attracted to philanderers and liars.   My resulting adult life was filled with angst of distrusting men and suspicious of their intentions and actions. In the recent past, a man I dated brought many of these fears to the surface.  While dating me, he was involved with countless other women and passed a deadly sexually transmitted disease to me and other women. This relationship really shook me and caused me to shy away from sex all together.

On this phase of my journey, I am attempting to overcome my distrust of men. First, I am aware of my feelings of distrust caused by my past experiences. In my current relationship, I am dealing with these waves of fear of being hurt and lied to again in my life. As these waves come over me, I allow them to release without reacting to them. I realize that all men have women friends as long we have a solid relationship, those other women do not bother me.

With philandering men, I notice that their attention and time are frequently redirected to the interest of other women at the expense of passing up time with me. As I am an intuit, I know when someone is lying to me, or attempting to deceive me. I frequently have confronted them to their dismay.

Every man deserves a chance.  However, once they stray then I move on as I believe I deserve so much better. I don’t need leftovers as there are many fish in the sea.  If we don’t demand better treatment, then we will never receive better treatment. This is what I have learned the hard way. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

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4 comments on “Building Trust

  1. Darn straight!!!
    We have to demand better treatment.
    My story is similar to yours in that way, the men, the disease, the distrust. Being married now 20 years has allowed me time to heal in many ways, especially from men using me and discarding me and straying. I am so glad you are demanding what you deserve!

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  2. Indeed every guy is not the an we can’t hold it against the other of what we went through with the past. But honostly speaking I think I’m done trying I guess I’m better off single.nd my current man is telling me his trying to make me a person! So what am I then?

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    • Thank you for sharing your thoughts. It is important for me to first work on myself. Until I accept and love myself, my relationship cannot do that for me. I hope to use my relationship to improve and learn about myself. If your relationship stands in your way of learning self love, I would agree that being alone is better. Sending love and hugs!

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