As I began my new job about a month ago, I have come to realize that many of the old issues are repeating. I am seeing the same issues with different people, and the Universe has brought back lessons apparently I have not fully learned. At work, I am encountering people who do not take responsibility for themselves, point fingers, and blame others for their failures.
My supervisor is very passive and is terrified of offending others, and as I set boundaries and hold others accountable, she also blames me for attempting to set healthy boundaries. The question I am asking myself and the Universe is why is this happening? What am I doing wrong? Why has she been sent to me?
This is the same dysfunctional behavior from my childhood. The school where I work is filled with chaos, drama, and people behaving badly toward each other. Why am I still attracting this in my life? How do I overcome being around this bad behaviors without becoming part of these bad behaviors?
In my personal life, I earlier encountered individuals who behaved badly and created horrible drama through infidelity, cheating, lying, deception, and general disrespectful behaviors. I have finally found people who take responsibility for themselves in my personal life now, and treat others with respect and with healthy boundaries. But why am I still attracting these bad behaviors at work?
My guess is that I must transcend this bad behavior and must not feed into the drama and chaos at work. I must rise above this chaos without being drawn into it, and when I do, I will finally be released from these people and no longer react to them. I believe this is the reason that they are still here in my work life as I have not learned what I still need to learn. (Copyright 2016 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved).
When we live without fear, we are able to love fearlessly. After five years of emotional healing and spiritual work, I finally learned to love fearlessly. My fears of abandonment, being unloveable, and rejection are in my past, and I am living a different life now.
Recently, when I went through a box of old journals and notebooks, I found a page written in early 2013 about reading some books on Abraham Hicks on the law of attraction, and learning to energetically aligning with what we want. Essentially, we energetically become what we want to attract.
Our aura or energetic frequency is composed of our emotional and mental vibrations. Trauma, negative experiences, and emotional injuries create a certain vibration which attracts similar vibrations. Many will meet or attract those who continue to abuse, hurt, and injure them, and cannot understand why this is happening as I did for a long time.
In this journal on this page, I found a list of things I wrote that I want in my life, including a loving, honest, and loyal relationship, a fulfilling and satisfying career, and my own healing and becoming my higher self. As I reflected on these words, I realize that I have received all that I asked for.
These miracles of finding my soulmate, finding a fulfilling job at a university where I am helping many students, and internal peace and love for myself are the results of changing my energetic frequency to attract what I want. May you heal and attract what you want. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved).