As I enter my my second month of work at a new university, I have been observing signs of community trauma. I believe that every human on earth has unresolved trauma. Trauma can range from experiencing a car accident to the death of a loved one or a divorce to childhood abuse. Most people have unresolved trauma, and currently living with some form of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD).
I believe our personal traumas can be further worsened or aggravated by community trauma, and those who have less trauma will further experience secondary trauma from others in the community. Something traumatic happened to this community, and now they are operation 24/7 under fight or flight mode of existence. These people must live such horrible existences in fear, distress, and triggered trauma.
As I enter this work environment, I am checking on my ego constantly as everyone is operating in perceived fear and crisis mode, and triggering others through secondary trauma. All decisions must be made by consensus in group of six or more. Nearly the entire university is operating its programs in fear or crisis mode, and is unaware of what is happening. The students are feeling the distress, fear, and trauma too.
I have become the calm voice and person in the turbulent storm attempting to calm their fears and distress. Outsiders who deal with us cannot understand why nothing is working and everyone is fighting amongst each other. I try to calm their fears with much difficulties as each person is triggering others directly or through secondary trauma.
I asked the Infinite for help and what I should do. I am told to love them despite not liking these people very much as they will distort the truth, lie, and cheat in fear of getting into trouble. I am told that I must hold these people accountable for what they do, but must empower them to live at their highest potential.
My conversation with the Infinite is that I will try for one year to see how much progress I can make, then I will move forward to others who are ready to do the hard work of emotional recovery, healing, and growth. I believe that I am destined to help those who are ready to help themselves. I ask the Infinite for guidance, strength, and patience along my journey forward. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)