My twin flame and I are working through the ascension process. It has been very difficult as our emotional issues intertwine. I recently began taking jazz piano lessons since I have been playing classical piano since the age of eight. Initially, I didn’t really understand why I am taking lessons now, and recently, I realized it is because I need to work through my fear of unworthiness.
When I was a child, my parent enrolled me in piano lessons, recitals, and piano competitions from the age of eight. I constantly was criticized for making mistakes, and being judged by parents and others. I never felt good enough about my classical piano playing. Jazz piano is very different, in that it is free form. Except for the rhythm and timing that must be spot on, there are no wrong notes to play.
As I journey through my jazz piano studies, I am learning to let go of all my fears, angst, and anxiety from childhood. I work on these issues every time I sit down to play, as it is a moving meditation with Emotional Release Practice. With hard work, I know I will overcome these fears within me.
At the same time, my twin is working through his fears of rejection and unworthiness. Last night, I had to identify his issues involving his anger and rage within toward his father. He is aware of these issues, but have not been working on them recently. I saw his hardness and hurt within, and shared this with him. It was a very difficult conversation, because I had to tell someone I love his deepest wounds and resulting behaviors.
With courage, he has stepped up to the plate and hopefully, he will persevere through these challenges. If he fails to move forward, I explained that our union will falter, and he will fall into this deep darkness alone. I have fallen myself into this deep darkness full of demons and karma, and vowed never to return there again. I am full of hope for my twin that he will overcome his demons, and heal this darkness. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)