I met my twin flame in 2013 in Cinque Terre, Italy without evening realizing it. At that time, I was trying to let go of several toxic karmic relationships, and in the chaos of the drama, I did not recognize who he was although I felt his energy. During the past four years, we kept in touch by Facebook, and we visited during my trips to California to see my family.
In late 2016, I accepted a job in California near him and my family. We have been inseparable since then, but our relationship is very intense energetically, emotionally, physically, and romantically. It is the most unbelievable connection. We have countless commonalities in our physical world, such as our professions, interests, and passions, in our emotional worlds as we have had similar histories with karmic relationships, our spiritual worlds as we both have our separate spiritual practices, and energetic worlds as we are connected intensely together.
This is the upside of my story. The downside is that I am the runner in our relationship, and have been struggling with horrible fears arising from past betrayals, lies, deceptions, and infidelity. As these fears have arisen, I have shared them with my twin because this time around I will overcome my fears with his help, love, and support. In the past, other men have become enraged and acted out of ego, and I also blamed them instead of acknowledging my own doubts and fears. As twins, we will constantly trigger each others’ fears as we are mirrors to one another in our experiences and emotions.
Like me, my twin is very brave and courageous in his life. He takes on new challenges and faces his fears, and he is sharing with me his strength and endurance during my difficulties. I must admit that my fears are so frightening to me as I am an empath, and when I connect with another, I feel that my privacy and personal space is invaded. I struggle to find balance in my own life without becoming consumed by others.
I truly believe in my twin and his abilities to overcome his struggles as I truly believe in me. For the first time in my life, I found someone just like me with true grit and courage. When I love him, it feels like loving myself. I would not have believed that I would meet my twin flame just a few years ago. It only happened after I let go of my toxic karmic relationships and romantic soulmates that prevented my soul from moving forward as I was stuck for many lifetimes. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)