If you are a regular reader, you may know that I entered into a twin flame relationship recently. This has been such a challenge in that I know this relationship is different than any other one I ever have had. He is my male counter-part in every way, spiritually, energetically, emotionally, physically, and mentally. I no longer struggle to find commonalities in these areas with a partner.
However, as my twin flame, he has triggered so many deep seeded fears such as fear of loss, fear of abandonment, fear of betrayal, and ultimately, the fear of being injured and hurt again. My old tapes and recordings of my past still haunt me as my father sexually and physically abused me, and had many romantic and sexual affairs, while my mother is mentally ill, and emotionally abused me.
This history has left me fearing being injured and hurt again, and these are my demons. My twin is fighting his own demons as well, and has been sharing his fears. Everyday, I try not to allow these fears to bleed into our amazing life together. We take long walks, listen to jazz together, will play music together, create art, talk for hours about spirituality and deep emotional issues, share our spiritual practices, and we support each others’ hopes and dreams. We both are wanderers, so we have many trips planned to hike, bike, camp, kayak, surf, ski, and who knows what else!
Our life together is amazing, but first we must overcome our demons and our past that still creep up on me when I least expect it. I am on my spiritual journey, but now I have been sent my twin flame to help me navigate the tempestuous waters of the unknown. May the Infinite guide us on this soul changing journey together. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)