This was a tough weekend of self reflection. My twin flame has reflected back things about myself that I do not like, and things I want to change about myself. I still face self doubt and feelings of unworthiness. I know that when I see him, it reflects back to me those things that are the same. I see in him the need for approval and affirmation from others, and as I react to him, I realize these are still emotional crutches I still have within me.
In the past, I would lash out at my partners for these weaknesses, but now I realize these are things within me that I do not like, and still need to change. My instinct is to run from these feelings and distance myself from my reality. It is difficult to face with all the dramatic changes in my inner and outer life that I still have more work to do.
It is easy to blame our twin for our own inadequacies instead of taking ownership of things ourselves. I no longer wish to behave this way anymore; it is time to grow up. What is still needing this approval and affirmation within me? Why do I still have these feelings? What is the fear driving these behaviors? As I proceed with my Twin Flame, I continue to heal and reflect on what needs more emotional work.
When I heal, I will help my twin to heal as well. So my spiritual journey continues onto the next phase of emotional recovery and spiritual growth. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)