Clearing and Cleansing

For 2019, I intend to clear out the material things in my life to just those things that I need. I emptied half my closet to give things away that no longer serves me, no longer fit me, or no longer is needed.

The second part of my healing work involves cleansing my body for a healthier lifestyle to include healthier foods, yoga, and regular exercise.

Shortly after I emptied my closet, I am already feeling the benefits. This is the first night in a while that I have not had nightmares or stress dreams about my job. I really didn’t believe this would work as it seems so simple. However, it really wasn’t. As I placed my belongings on a large pile to give away, I felt a sense of loss, and sadness. It was as if I’ve lost something or didn’t have enough. For me, this was the reason for accumulating all of these material things.

I will be beginning my cleansing regiment shortly, and hope to reap the benefits of feeling more energized, losing some weight, and feeling emotionally lighter.

Every year is a new beginning. Every month is a new beginning. Every week is a new beginning. Every day is a new beginning.May you change your life one day at a time. (Copyright 2018 Awakening journey with all rights reserved.)

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Practicing Self Love

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I was one of those people that others talk about at Christmas and Thanksgiving with depression, sadness, and loneliness. After years of therapy, I came to realize that I was abused by my parents which caused severe depression and suicidal thoughts.

My therapist helped me separate from my family as continuing contacts with them caused great emotional and physical harm to me.   After that, I had many years of depression, sadness, and loneliness during the holidays.

Not surprisingly, I was divorced due to dysfunctional and negative behaviors I practiced with my family.  It has been many years that I have tried to change my life and these negative behaviors.

This aloneness has taught me to become independent, self-sufficient, and nurturing to myself.  This year my partner had to travel to see his mom in the nursing home.  Therefore, I spent Christmas alone.

During this alone time, I took myself to the beach, shopped for myself, hiked and painted which is a form of healing therapy for me, and had a wonderful massage.  Slowly I am learning that taking  care  of myself is just as important as taking care of my loved ones. We must love ourselves first before we are able to love others. (Copyright 2018 awakening journey with all rights reserved)

Reflections

BE7786D8-1D64-454D-AED1-21E95F0CE7D8The end of every year is a great time to reflect on my spiritual growth and evolution that year. This year, I have overcome many fears and obstacles, including fear of failure, fear of abandonment, and fear of not being accepted.

This has been a challenging year! Overcoming my fear of failure has allowed me to stay at a job that is overwhelming, challenging, and frustrating. Overcoming my fear of abandonment has allowed me to stay in a healthy, loving, and functional relationship. Finally, overcoming my fear of not being accepted has allowed me to be a fair and realistic supervisor.

My work is not yet over as I struggle to let go, and come to acceptance of my reality and learning to live with myself. It seems to me that this entire spiritual healing process is learning to be with myself, and my reality. It is accepting the silence, the aloneness, and our inner thoughts.

As I continue to overcome my fears every minute of every day, I am slowly becoming the person I wish to be. May you reflect on your spiritual growth and evolution! (Copyright 2018 awakening journey with all rights reserved)

Remembering Loved Ones in the Spirit World

EF4A5F31-75CC-4594-BD75-7D72C57DBE3BDuring the holidays, we remember the fond memories with our loved ones. Many have passed on to the spirit world, and we are saddened that they are no longer with us.

However, they really are still with us! We are truly connected through the Infinite. Our energy are one with the larger cosmos.

For me, I was raised by my grandmother until the age of eight. She essentially served as my mother, as she bonded with me as an infant. Although she has been gone for 20 years, I still feel her energy with me all the time.

My grandmother now is a part of  my being. Because of her, I have become the person I am today. My love for her never wanes and is everlasting. (Copyright 2018 awakening journey with all rights reserved).