Following the Tides

The spiritual journey flows like the tides,

Cycling through like a spiral,

Round and round it goes.

I stop to ponder where I have traveled,

Only to find my way back to the same flow.

It has taken me around and back,

To where I began.

It all seems so obvious and astute,

This time around.

Through each flow there is more clarity,

And the world becomes more vivid and clear.

The events of my life repeat,

But with each new wave,

I learn my life lessons.

The ghosts of my past remain in my past,

I then move merrily forward with knowing and wisdom,

Since the Infinite shows me where I must go.

(Copyright 2018 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)





Great Suffering of the Mind


As an empath, I have had the privilege of entering energy fields and minds of those I am attempting to help with healing their emotional wounds through Reiki and other modalities of healing work.  I have sensed and felt great suffering from those I am attempting to help.

What I have felt is that the greatest obstacles and sufferings are not from others or factors outside of us, but the greatest obstacles and sufferings are created by ourselves.  Let me explain.  When we experience anxiety, fear, and stress, most of these are perceived in anticipation of something we are about to experience.  This anxiety and stress is our fear of this future experience.  Some of these fears involve the fear of the unknown or failure in this future experience.  Other times, it is the fear of re-experiencing a trauma or negative experience we earlier experienced, but our minds cannot forget or let go of that past negative experience.

The greatest suffering is from our negative thoughts within our own minds.  It is our minds on automatic pilot filled with negative thoughts about ourselves and our future experiences. We essentially torment ourselves with these negative thoughts all day long.  Our moods and overall outlook are tainted and adversely effected by these negative thoughts.

The first step to changing our moods and overall outlook is changing our negative thoughts that haunt us by recognizing that we are doing this to ourselves.  These negative thoughts can be controlled and resolved through awareness, healing the wounds causing these negative thoughts, and rewiring our minds to positive thoughts.

Once we begin to understand where great suffering comes from – us, then we begin to become the masters of our thoughts and our minds.  It is learning to take back our own powers from our thoughts who end up controlling and tormenting us when we live on automatic pilot.  (Copyright 2018 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)



The Karmic Hand

Waves of karma,

Flowing through lifetimes,

Follows you like the tides.

With each new moon,

Karmic tides resonate in the sea,

Reflecting back the same.

With one hand, it gives,

With the other, it takes away.

You hold the hand you are dealt.

Your very livelihood is taken away,

Without means or recourse,

Ponder not what you will do,

But what you have done.

The harms of your past,

Shall follow you,

The rest of your soul life.

(Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved)

Letting Go of Ghosts from My Past

We all have a past and it is our emotional history. There was love that was lost, love we never received, and love we never could give. This may have involved our parents, our past lovers, or people we loved from afar.

Whoever theses ghosts were, we must let them go in order to move forward on our journey of soul evolution. After I released these ghosts from my life, my life transformed, and my soul grew miraculously.

As for me, some of these ghosts were from past lifetimes, and some were from my past in my current life. One particular person was a karmic debt from my past life time. When I finally released him from my life by forgiving him for this debt, my current life transformed including finally uniting with my twin flame.

The hurt, pain, and resentment fell away as I forgave him and released him. I never realized that letting go of this ghost could free me and finally allow me to move forward in my soul life.

Learning this important life lesson has brought joy, peace, and love that I was never able to attain earlier in my soul life. May you let go of the ghosts of your past. (Copyright 2017 awakening journey with all rights reserved)

Twin Flames: Two Sides of the Coin


It is the end of 2017, and a wonderful opportunity to reflect on the past year. It has been nearly one year since my relationship with my twin flame, although we have known each other for over five years.

The unusual relationship of twin flames is that we mirror our twin’s emotional wounds. It is the same wound but from two different perspectives. Case in point, I am working through issues of jealousy and trust. My childhood was filled with distrust as my father had many extramarital affairs as well as sexually abusing me.  My twin flame is working on lack of self-esteem that has caused him to seek approval and attention from other people.

Here lies the double edged sword where my emotional wound is also his emotional wound like two sides of the same coin.  After much contemplation, I have come to realize that I must heal my own  emotional wounds so I no longer suffer with this distrust and jealousy in my life.  He also must heal his emotional wounds so that his self worth is not reliant on the approvals and attentions of others.

Our relationship has a mirroring effect so that when we find fault with the other, it is critically important to see our side of the same coin. Every relationship we have with others is a mirror of ourselves. May you reflect on your year of 2017. (Copyright 2017  Awakenimg Journey  with all rights reserved)

The Fear of Lack

CD858A0E-F9F2-45D0-A242-FD532059444AWe as humans have come to believe that there is a lack or dearth, and there is not enough to go around for all. This fear drives us as a specie.

During my spiritual journey, I have learned that this is a fiction created by our fears.  I believe this fear is created by our egos.  On my  spiritual journey, the Infinte  has shown me that there is enough to go around and success is available for everyone.

If we fear this lack, then lack is what we will attract into our lives.  So many People function and live through this fear. What I have observed is that they then attract this lack of abundance, lack of love, and lack of success.

How do we overcome this fear of lack? We begin to believe that  there is already abundance, love, and success in our lives, and we are grateful for all we have.  This may seem deceptively simple, but it is true.

Try this method and see if there is a change in abundance in your life.  May you find abundance in your life this Christmas! Merry Christmas to you!  (Copyright  2017 awakening journey  with all rights reserved)

Gifts for My Mission

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During my most recent spiritual practice, I have become aware of hearing thoughts and experiencing others’ emotional states.  In the past, I was aware of feelings and intentions, but it has evolved into hearing specific thoughts and experiences.  When I began hearing other’s thoughts and actually experience their emotional states, I wonder why this is happening to me?  As an empath, maybe this is normal?

The first person I experience these symptoms was my twin flame who has ADD.  I began to feel his ADD symptoms and condition which I have never experience before.  As I experienced these symptoms, I used this experience to problem solve how to cope with these symptoms then shared them with my twin flame.  He responded that it was helping him with these symptoms.

I also began to hear his thoughts quite clearly just as he is thinking of them.   At first, they were specific words.  Later it became complete thoughts and concepts.  Now, I am able to hear the thoughts of others as well. I have been using this ability to assist me to do my job to help college students after sexual assault, dating violence, stalking, and sexual harassment as I am able to hear their thoughts since many cannot express their pain and trauma.

Maybe this ability is intended to assist me to help others overcome their pain and suffering, and empower others during their time of need.  I am grateful for these gifts from the Infinite, and hope that I have the wisdom, courage, and strength to carry out my mission to empower others to heal themselves. (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)



Blessings from the Infinite


For those of you who have followed my blog in the past four years, you know how long my journey has been.  I survived childhood abuse, mental illness, addiction, and abusive relationships, and many other traumas that I have described on this blog.  When my Kundalini energy rose in March 2011, the Infinite explained that by facing my demons and traumas that I would be rewarded with a beautiful, fulfilling, and peaceful life.  I finally found this place.

About a year ago, I moved to the same area as my parents where I believed I would never live. In this place, I found a job that fulfills my life purpose of working with college students after sexual assault, dating violence, and stalking.   I am able to empathize with their experiences, pains, and fears.  I also found love with my twin flame who is on his spiritual journey trying to heal his pain and find his truth. We spent this Thanksgiving as a family with his daughter and her boyfriend.  It feels like a divine connection with this family.  My divine meeting with my twin flame occurred in Cinque Terra, Italy in 2013, and the connection was instant, but it took until 2016 after letting go of my past before I was able to unite with him.  My connection with his daughter also felt instant and divine as she too had an arduous journey and past.

This Thanksgiving felt like true blessings from the Infinite.  What I heard from the Infinite was that I finally found my true family after never connecting with my family of origin, and never having a family of my own.  These blessings came only after I let go of the pains, hurts, resentments, and fears of my past, so that I may move forward with my twin and my soul life. May you find blessings on this Thanksgiving! (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)