Steps to Healing Past Emotional Pain


During these past few months, I have been confronted with some deep seeded distrust as a result of my childhood abuse by and a philandering father.  As an adult, I attracted men like my father into my life causing more emotional injury and trauma to my life.   This has translated into distrust of men that is deeply ingrained within me.  These past emotional injuries resulted in deep blockages within my sacral and heart chakras.  In my attempts to unblock these chakras, I have tried the following methods:

  • Letting go what you can’t control and letting go of past emotions and behaviors through intention, belief, and actions
  • Awareness of triggering thoughts, events, and statements by simply observing them without reaction
  • Acknowledge your fears through stating them out loud or writing them down
  • Forgive yourself and others for past mistakes and failures by accepting your past
  • Learning to love yourself through self care, setting healthy boundaries with others, and nurturing yourself

At the root of distrust is the lack of self love and fear.  When we fear betrayal and being hurt again, we have not forgiven ourselves and others for injuring us.  We have not learned to love ourselves through setting clear and healthy boundaries with others, and taking responsibility for and control of our actions that are forms of self love.

When we learn to let go of the past through clear intentions that we no longer want certain emotions and behaviors in our lives, we follow up with the belief that we can and will change them, then follow through with consistent change in our actions.  Good luck with healing your past emotional pain. (Copyright 2017 with All Rights Reserved)



Sacral Chakra Healing


My biggest hurdle is my jealousy from a sacral chakra blockage caused by childhood sexual abuse.  This abuse began at the age of eight years old by my father creating an unhealthy triangulation between my father, my mother, and me.  My father also had many sexual and romantic partners while married to my mother.  My jealousy has to do with distrust of men, and feeling unworthy due to my relationship with my father.

Recently, I have felt pain and discomfort in my sacral chakra area, and suffer an urinary track infection.  When we have blockages within our chakras, we are more likely to experience physical problems and illnesses in that region of the body.  Although I am treating my symptoms with antibiotics, I must clear this deep and stubborn blockage in this chakra.

These blockages occur in many layers of pain and emotional wounds. I already have removed some of these deep and stubborn layers, but I still must work deeper and deeper to clear the remaining blockages.  I us the following six techniques:

1) Creative practice (Dance, art, music, singing, etc.)

2) Exercise, particularly in nature

3) Hip opening yoga postures

4) Crystal healing

5)  Throat chakra opening and clearing

6)  Learning to let go of your past through Emotional Release Practice

Good luck with your sacral chakra clearing and healing journey. Sending blessings of love!  (Copyright 2017 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

Healing the Root Chakra

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The Muladhara or root chakra rests at the base of spine, and the seat of Kundalini.  The central issues for root chakra blockage involves survival, stability, acceptance, self-preservation, deep-rootedness, perception, grounding, fear and safety.   The problems rest in the physical body involving self-preservation caused by fear usually resulting in issues during developmental stages from womb to 12 months.  These blockages may be caused by traumas and abuses, including, birth trauma, abandonment, physical neglect, poor physical bonding with the mother, malnourishment, feeding difficulty, major illness or surgery, physical abuse, inherited traumas (eg. war, poverty, etc.)

The sexual and adrenal hormonal glands may be affected as well as, organs in the immune system, base of spine, legs, bones and bone marrow, feet, rectum, and physical body support.  Physical dysfunction from blockage in the root chakra may include frequent illness, disorders of the bowel, large intestine, bones, teeth, problems with legs, feet, base of spine(chronic lower back pain, sciatica), eating disorders, depression; immune-related disorders, skin problems, and lack of energy.  Those with this charka blockage may suffer addiction involving food, gambling, shopping, and work.  Spiritual challenged for root chakra blockage, involves how well we manage our physical world.

Excessive energy in the root chakra can cause individuals to become sluggish, lazy, tired, monotony, obesity, overeating, hoarding, materialism, greed, fear of change, and addiction to security.  Deficient energy in the root chakra causes individuals to become fearful, anxious, restless, lack of discipline, underweight, financial difficulty, and chronic disorganization. While balanced energy in the root chakra should result in  good health, vitality, well grounded, sense of trust in the world, feeling safe and secure, stability, prosperity, and ability to relax.

Healing strategy for the root chakra includes physical activity, lots of touch, massage, reconnect with the body, grounding, Hatha yoga, look at earliest childhood relationship to mother, and reclaim your right to be here.  The use of essential oil such as patchouli, cedarwood, or sandalwood may also help.  Crystal healing using Garnet, Ruby, Agate, Onyx, Haematite, Red Jasper, Black Tourmaline, Smoky Quartz, Bloodstone, and Red Coral is another option.

Affirmations that may be helpful in healing the root chrakra:

It is safe for me to be here.

The earth supports me and meets my needs.

I love my body and trust its wisdom.

I am interested in abundance.

I am here and I am real.

I trust my Higher Self to fulfill all my needs.

My life is full of prosperity.

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Finding Trust


Trust comes when we have healed the pain and hurt in our hearts.  When we heal the heart, we trust, we love, and we lose fear of being unworthy and the fear of loss.  It has been a long and arduous journey for me involving many lifetimes.  My heart was fragile, broken, and wounded for so long that I do not recall a time before now that I existed differently. My transformation was not through light and beauty, but through darkness and pain.

It took me seemingly miles of walking through my past and releasing all the hurt and pain I held in my heart, that I harbored and even relished because that was all I knew.  There is no other way of being that I knew, lived, or understood due to my childhood abuse, trauma, and betrayals.  My heart had hardened and my anger protected me as if no one can ever hurt me again because of my hard shell.

All this changed when my Kundalini energy rose in March 2011, and I was given another chance at my life.  With new insights and intuition, I charged forward into the darkness and despair of my past to face the most horrible fears that I can imagine.  These fears did not destroy me, but made me stronger because I proved to myself that I can survive even my worst fears! I did not give up, but persevered one day at a time.

Since releasing my heart blockages as there were many, I have softened my hard edges. Now, I love without condition, trust with less fear, and laugh at myself a lot when I revert to the familiar old ways.  The old patterns are breaking down, and I am finding new patterns through this love and trust.  I have become the woman I dreamed about becoming.  She is beautiful, dignified, kind, and loving.  She is soft, and she is within me. (Copyright 2014 Living Wide Awake with All Rights Reserved)




Holistic Approach to Healing

energy_medicine_mind_body_spirit_0The purpose of my blog is to share the holistic approach to healing.  After the rise of my Kundalini energy, I began this holistic approach to healing from the energetic, psychological, and physical. Healing from just one perspective cannot give us complete healing as all these aspects are interconnected, and must be addressed holistically.  Our emotional landscape created from our psychological experiences translates to energy within our energy field or auras. The part of our energy field that stores negative emotions is called the painbody.  Our painbody within energy fields rests in our physical body where we may experience physical pain, ailments, and disease from this painbody.

I have spent nearly four year since the rise of my Kundalini energy to address my personal healing from this holistic approach.  What I found is that through energy practice we can heal past emotional wounds within our energy fields and painbodies.  Energy practice include, Reiki, meditation, chakra balancing, energy medicine, crystal healing, acupuncture, Chi Gong, yoga, and other forms of energy work.  However, it is the psychological work that changes our behaviors and thinking so as to avoid current and future emotional injuries, such as psychotherapy, regression therapy, hypnosis, dream analysis, behavioral therapy, addiction work, and art and music therapies.  Finally, physical work includes exercise, spending time in nature, yoga practice, aromatherapy, bodywork/massage, eating healthy, and traveling to other cultures to have experiences outside of our own lives are necessary to maintain a healthy mind/body balance in our lives.

Most individuals focus on one aspect of healing. Our society tends to focus on physical work to stay thin and fit.  Those in the spiritual community tends to focus on energy practice.  However, I believe that a holistic approach is necessary to reach a healthy mind/body balance.  May you find a healthy balance in your life. (Copyright 2014 Living Wide Awake with All Rights Reserved)


Unlearning of Fear


Recently, someone was sent into my life to show me something about myself.  What was reflected back to me was something I don’t like much about myself.  I have struggled with jealousy, co-dependency, poor boundaries, and possessiveness for most of my soul, and I know it originates from my heart chakra blockage likely from emotional injuries to the heart over many lifetimes.

I believe this person was sent to me to show me this part of myself.  I appear to do fine with those I don’t have a great attachment,  but for those I feel very attached, this becomes a big problem for me.  She was my Reiki practitioner, but she began to become enmeshed in my life by asking about my personal interactions with others, wanting to get together outside of our sessions, and wanting more than a practitioner/client relationship.

First, let me say that she is a wonderful and talented practitioner of Reiki and bodywork, but she lacks proper boundaries, and is a co-dependent like me. She became quite jealous and possessive when she found out that I am working with others for my spiritual and healing work, and demanded to know if I intend to continue with them. This is when I decided to terminate my work with her, and began seeking another Reiki practitioner.

After this experience, I realize that I too drive away those who care for me by my jealous and possessive behavior. It is caused by fear of loosing those I love, but ironically, the result is exactly what I fear that is I drive away those I love, and I loose them anyway.  Our fear is our worst enemy, as what we fear most will likely happened as that is what the fear will attract under the Universal Law of Attraction. (Copyright 2014 Living Wide Awake with All Rights Reserved)

The Sacral Chakra: The Seat of Emotions


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The sacral chakra is the second chakra in the body’s energy system. The sacral chakra receives universal energy after it is filtered through the root chakra, the body’s first chakra.

The sacral chakra is the seat of emotions. This chakra is the storage center for all the experiences associated with love and hate. The feelings of acceptance or rejection from ourselves and others influence the relationships created in our life. The sacral chakra influences how people express their emotions as well as influence the decisions people make. A balanced sacral chakra helps people express their emotions without being overly emotional, and opens them to passion, intimacy and sexuality.

The sacral chakra turns universal energy into manifesting energy or energy that attracts. The sacral chakra acts like a magnet to attract the reality, that mirrors the thoughts and feelings stored in this chakra. These thoughts and feelings become manifest in…

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What We Need is Courage!


Last night, I had a release in my heart chakra that I have never felt before. During my last Reiki treatment, my practitioner observed a blockage in the center of my heart chakra.  She saw this blockage in my heart chakra as a result of my trying to protect myself from further injury and hurt.  Last night, I felt waves of fear flowing from my heart chakra that lasted what seems to be hours.  These waves felt like the most horrible fears that I can imagine in different aspects of my life.

Trust has been difficult for me because of the abuse, trauma, abandonment, and betrayal that I have experienced in numerous lifetimes.  I am releasing all my fears now in order to trust in my life.  Even if I don’t trust certain people I encounter, it will not be due to my fear from my past.  I will be able to see my reality clearly so that I am not seeing my world through the clouded lenses affected by my past.

I have observed many people some who are Kundalini active and are not.  What I have seen is that those who have courage will move forward on their spiritual path through emotionally healing and releasing ego.  Those who are not will remain stuck in their soul lives in the same dysfunctions and suffering.

Even Kundalini active individuals can remain stuck for many soul lives as they have refused to do the required emotional healing and ego releasing in order to ascend spiritually.  Some Kundalini active individuals and even those who are spiritual teachers can experience spiritual bypass attempting to bypass the required emotional healing and releasing ego work to ascend.  They too will remain stuck in their soul lives.

“Only thing we have to fear is fear itself.”  as stated eloquently by Franklin D. Roosevelt.  For courage is the path to overcoming all our fears to make spiritual ascension possible. (Copyright 2014 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)

Healing through Grace


I am experiencing what I believe to be the second major shift in my Kundalini life after the recent solar eclipse and the Divine union of my masculine and feminine energies. During the first shift, I left my marriage, changed careers, left the town I lived in, and left most of my friends. This shift will cause me to change my life dramatically again for the second time since the rise of my Kundalini in March 2011.

If you follow my blog then you know that grounding our Kundalini energy through methods discussed in “Stabilizing Kundalini Energy” found at the tab on my Blogsite Homepage is the first step to stabilizing our Kundalini energy. The next and more important step to permanently stabilize our Kundalini energy is to heal our past emotional wounds needed to clear our chakras and energy body of blockages, through “Observing Ego Practice” to cope with fears brought up by the healing process, and “Emotional Release Practice” to help heal past emotional pain, both found at these tabs on my Blogsite Homepage.

As I have been diligently healing my past emotional wounds for three and half years, I have worked through many of my emotional issues within my current lifetime. Please see the “Kundalini Recovery Process” tab on my Blogsite Homepage for the steps of the Kundalini recovery process. However, our painbody within our energy body stores emotional pain from our previous lifetimes as well. I am now working through emotional pain from my past lifetimes with my Reiki practitioner.

During our session today, we worked through one past lifetime, when I was male, and my mother die when I was young. As I was not raised in the safety of my mother, I was very sickly with some form of throat disease or injury, and felt very weak as a man. This explains my feeling of powerlessness in this lifetime. Today, I worked through my throat and heart chakra blockages caused by this physical injury and the distrust in my heart resulting from being raised by others as I did not have my mother to protect me. Ironically, in later lifetimes, I attracted mothers who were unable or unwilling to protect me.

As I concluded my Reiki session today, my practitioner said, we have done everything that you and I can do, now we must allow grace to take over to heal the rest and help in your shift to the next phase of your Kundalini life. With patience, I await my transition through grace. (Copyright 2014 Awakening Journey with All Rights Reserved)